amniöt Experiencer Notebook

<p>
Friday, April 24th<br/>
Record.Label.Records and Katabatik present:<br/>
live multi-channel electronic musick with:
</p>

<ul>
<li>
POLAR<br/>
http://www.katabatik.org/POLAR
</li>
<li>
Nommo Ogo<br/>
http://www.nommoogo.org
</li>
<li>
Fluorescent Grey<br/>
http://www.myspace.com/fgrey
</li>
<li>
NADA<br/>
http://www.katabatik.org/nada
</li>
</ul>

<p>
A CD release part for Nommo Ogo 'Across Time and Space'<br/>
Refreshments provided by Aphotic Ales<br/>
At the RML Compound, SF<br/>
visit http://www.katabatik.org/compound<br/>
for location info.<br/>
starts at 9pm, doors open at 8:30<br/>
8$
</p>

<p>
Flyer here : http://www.katabatik.org/images/comp24th.jpg
</p>
<p>
<a href="http://katabatik.org/compound" rel="external">Compound Information</a>
</p>

<p>
Thursday, April 23rd<br/>
Katabatik Metacommunications presents<br/>
A Throbbing Gristle Afterparty... <br/>
~11pm - 2am<br/>
Djs: D-SYN, pink.noise., R.M.S.<br/>
at the space gallery<br/>
1141 Polk St<br/>
San Francisco<br/>
Free<br/>
<a href="http://www.spacegallerysf.com">http://www.spacegallerysf.com</a>
</p>

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{connect visually in illustrator}

the ego is a <!--social--> "protective" layer/program,
leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system.
it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self
it is a system that is created by <!--social--> feedback from your environment
it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an unknowable assumption
about how others perceive thee.
ego underhandedly tries to control
other incarnated beings
to "make" them do things
to bolster that ego
back into safety-mode
when it is alarmed by
possibilities of death
or pain caused by insecurity/dis-integration/un-acceptance,
naught else.
ego tries to cling to feelings,
that is what feeds it,
by negatively cycling the feeling
until a breaking point is reached
and the voyager lashes-out
thereby sending violent disruption
into social environ and connected beings.
it is therefor irrelevant to spirit-ape
for the spirit-ape desires peace
and freedom to operate closest
to its true will, that is:
with a minimum of internal friction.
the desires of spirit (emotion)
transcend the concerns of
the physical plane of reality.

though "controlling" environment
is part of the greater self-illusion
and not necessarily egoic
(ego is a sub-program of "self"
that attempts to save that self
from social "depravity").

though all control is illusion,
hallucinated-self
has ability to "manipulate"
under compassion-mode,
but is not always the case...
awareness of acceptance choice
can de-power voyager control-reaction.

ego can never know compassion
therefor increasing awareness of its methods
is all we can do.
cannot force compassion upon it -
that only bolsters it more
as it basks in the attention.

===============EDIT BELOW=============

Actions only make attainment <strong>more possible</strong>,
they cannot attain on their own.
Honest surrender is a <strong>state</strong>
not an <strong>action</strong>.
Thou wilt attain at the time proper
for thine own nature.
Which means without
<strong>neurosis of divisions</strong>,
without resisting
The One True Way.

Awareness is tool of true will.
Pushing the self to "accept" is the most subversive kind of control!

Awareness limited by coincidence control center=spiritcore.
achievement: illusory, pride: egoic emanation.
true will is placenta connecting goddess to entity...

the fluidic connectivity
of the lashing Basilisk,
up and down
it moves its head
in response to
Her Writhing Love Dance
to drink from Her Arched Body
to take tiny tastes
of succinct succulent subtle sublimity,
all-ways to Her.

i am the serpent:
exemplifying intensity
in both directions,
wearing and concealing
emotion,
streamlining and breaking-down
antiquated machinery.

========================================

figured out what to say to someone when they say "i'm sorry"
if you'd like to be obtuse and express your own feelings: "i'm not"

truer (non-egoic) "i" doesn't necessarily need or want to be controlled by sorrow
truest "i" not controlled by sorrow in any case
self-illusion emanates sorrow
egoic veil lashes-out in fear from that sorrowful feeling
attempting to socially control others into strengthening itself

ego degrades as well as cherishes itself
to induce dualed-perpetuation of itself
for primate-derived control over social environment
current socio-cultural environment creates and enforces egoic worldview
due to lack of awareness due to fear of pain which emanates from ego control center

peek-a-boo, bestfriend, i see you!
ego not enemy
ego attempts to protect primate
voyager seeing it as such was egos control plan all along
(the voyager's un-plan includes all plans of ego)

playing with illusion of "effort" on part of the felt-self only enforces it
seeing intentionality split perpetuates more splitting
true surrender is a state not a method
awareness not action but two-way connection to spiritcore
only love can take the ego

ego trying to protect the primate
we don't need it anymore
we must not evilify it

will of the all
emanates love-bonding capability.

egoic and later self veil falls
if and when
it is your One True Will
to lose them.

Will descends as the self rises up towards loving connection.
complete connection of these means Ecstasy of Obliteration
burning away irrelevant and antiquated habits of ego control center

eye desire more cosmological awareness....

"love under will" means Love as the capability platform
and Will as the dynamic aspect of that platform - the going.

dualed system necessary to create copies of spiritcore
and view ascendence patterns of them as emergent creative light
ego not enemy but possibility of novelty
infinite singularity/infinite space=1 and 0=duality platform=hadit/nuit playground
1=0
2 (multiplicity) only exists within ego construct within voyager
2=0, 2=1
when personal will is purified by love - true will flows like fountain
the self-construct may then emanate purer light and move toward complete integration w/spiritcore=death=life, amen
consciousness a holographic copy of godhead with limiting programs called ego
it is the ultimate conundrum
cosmic giggle
it is a game
voyager never and always wins
alchemical philosophers stone
magnum opus is a catch 22

Does attention and affection between people always perpetuate ego?
not necessarily, intimate connection can be had without playing off pain-fear of voyagers in question, pleasure still available without attachments.

Difference between illusion of perceived-self and egoic programming...
ego seeks to manipulate for its illusion of self-benefit.
ego seeks to take RESPONSIBILITY for actions which are in actuality pure expressions of the totality of nature, NOT itself.
perceived self (the experiencer) does not do this, it just is, it is unified and blames naught.
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<div class="attribution">Credit to J.C. Gold for the "Labyrinth Games" idea. His listing of them in the appendix of American Book of the Dead is both humorous and frightening, my favorite example:</div>
<div class="quote">#34. window created, scary shapes appear at window game</div>

<div class="subtitle">Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming</div>
<p>
Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to its ecstasy. it means a shedding of illusory constructs, realizing true blends 100% into false. these and other constructs make us who we are currently. the infinite possibility of existence, fluctuating compliments, all beautiful as all be.
</p>
<p>
Process: as the past (which can never again be experienced) drives the experiencer to cling to things like antiquated tendencies of the lower-dimensional realities, the searing radiation of truth burns inward from the future. almost too painful to bare, as freedom overwhelms the loveplay-weary voyager: i ask if this is 'the moment we've all been waiting for' - shivering, sobbing in the cold wind - replies: yeahhssss.
</p>
<p>
Surrender: so, expose my pride, dance on my resistance, soak my necessity in warm spit, dissect my competitiveness survival-program, gain insight on my control-based dis-ease. to achieve ease? achieve not - end the pain, or do not. cannot push surrender to manipulate an end, the surrendering means you accept any end. i can become aware (of its manipulative nature), i can choose (to not cave to its pressures), i can balance (the courage with the fear, the joy with the pain).
</p>
<p>
Question: is not, what things you know that are true or false but, how much truth can you <em>stand</em> (before there is nothing recognizable as you left)? can you go all the way? make that hallucinated-sacrifice? the universe watches until you do and you've already decided, haven't you?
</p>

<div>Thursday , April 16th</div>
<div>Katabatik MetaCommunications Platform presents</div>
<h4>livesessions from:</h4>

<div>
<a href="http://www.myspace.com/mnemoth" rel="external"><strong>MNEMOTH</strong></a> - hard, sick minimal electro + live vocoder abuse
</div>

<div>
<a href="http://www.myspace.com/fgrey" rel="external"><strong>Fluorescent Grey</strong></a> - psychedelic beats with 80's EBM flavour
</div>

+

<div>
Djs R.M.S. , .Pink.Noise, Eyebrane, Djynnx
<br/>
selecting the finest slimewave, battle ambient, abandoned house, death trance, and OTHER...
</div>

<div>
Starts at 9<br/>
3$ donation<br/>
(Free if covered in Black Slime)
</div>

<div class="quote">...entertainment beyond comprehension...</div>

<p>
featuring<br/>
RICHARD DEVINE<br/>
KID KAMELEON<br/>
QUITTER<br/>
STAYPUFT DJ<br/>
HARBOUR
</p>

<p>10pm / $10 / 21+</p>

<p>SKEWERED BEATS SERVED HOT TO YOUR FEETS</p>

<h3>Description</h3>

<p>The Night Kitchen throws open the doors to its most outrageous installment yet, delivering explosive beats and bass straight to the dancefloor of Chinatown’s bizarre basement hotspot Li Po Lounge. Legendary soundsmith Richard Devine leads the havoc with an arsenal of intense, glitched-out machine beats. Perhaps best known for carving out a singular sonic style through releases on Warp,Schematic and Sublight, Richard has more recently taken the sound design world by storm, crafting audio for companies from Audi to Yamaha. This momentous occasion marks the long-awaited followup to his 2006 mind-melting performance at Recombinant Media Labs and promises to ignite the city anew.</p>

<p>But the party doesn’t stop there - SF’s most mischevious musicmakers join the fray for a night full of dancetastic delights. Venerable jockey Kid Kameleon blesses the basement massive with his trademark blend of booty-wiggling mashup madness and fresh emerging styles from around the world. Oakland glitch-hop duo Quitter bring a raw, bombastic energy and create unbelievable crunked-up beats on the fly. Staypuft DJ champions the little-known middle ground between Parliament and dubstep – a genre called skweee - and Harbour starts off the festivities with a lush blend of dubstep, techno and classic IDM.</p>

<p>Add in Li Po’s signature stiff drinks and divey goodness and you’ve got the perfect recipe for a party. The Night Kitchen is back with big plans for 2009 – this is just the beginning.</p>

http://www.planet-mu.com/forums/general?t=54632

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timeslots
10-10:40 - Harbour
10:40-11:10 - Staypuft
11:10-11:50 - Quitter
11:50-12:30 - Kid Kameleon
12:30-close - Richard Devine
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nastysonix.com

<p>
i had this dream where i was this creature.
there was a girl and boy there, they were a couple.
i asked them if they felt nothing for me.
they acted ashamed to say yes.
another creature like me appears.
though i know it is a strong opponent
i have no fear nor do i believe
there is any possibility but victory.
i can jump and fall down immense
distances with this body.
there is no harming it.
</p>

<p>COMRADES! The crew of the D.M.A. Raphus Ineptus is proud to present to you our first booty-shaking evening of unbridled mayhem...</p>
<p>For those who don't know, we've just purchased a 37' 1977 Gillig school bus and are currently in the process of turning it into a gigantic Victorian airship! More info at the party.</p>
<p>Bring your friends to Space Gallery on March 27th and we'll be throwing down the hottest, sexiest dance beats in the galaxy. DJs will be spinning dubstep, electro disco, funk, rock and classics, and there will be art and food available for viewing and eating in whatever order you prefer.</p>
<p>Space gallery runs a beer and wine bar so prepare your livers in advance.</p>
<pre>
DJs:
Rich DDT [Nexus/Lovetech]
DJ Oaty Love [Quest Quartz]
Sasquatch Borracho [Bronson]
Manopause [Monticello]
Yudo Nomi [Monticello]

Posters by Kevin Scott Hailey

Massage by Nicole Stevenson

$5-10 sliding scale suggested donation (no one turned away)

Hope to see you all there!

-- Crew of the D.M.A Raphus Ineptus

Please note the venue is 21+

www.dodocalypse.com
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<p>Soft Target gets around.. This month we're moving venues and day!</p>
<p>Join us Saturday March 21st at ANU BAR!</p>
<p>Special Guest: Eo (Moniker)</p>
<p>$5 Entry!</p>

<p>http://incubator.orgnsm.org/node/64</p>
<p>http://triplegoddess.anoml.net/node/6</p>

<p>
this will be thee final KATANEXUS this satyrday march 14th... thee
performances will start early you dont want to miss them....
</p>
<p>Katanexus - Katabatik Soundsystem at Orbis Nex</p>
<p>March 14th , starts at 9pm</p>
<p>5$ -10$ entry - a benefit for prisoners of "the green scare"</p>
<h5>liverites:</h5>
<ul>
<li>POLAR</li>
<li>Djynnx</li>
<li>Kanopic Descent</li>
<li>Nezzy Idy</li>
<li>Seacrypt</li>
</ul>
<p>
djs: Pink.Noise. and Grizelda Blanco selecting the finest weirdcore, death
trance, slimewave , funereal lounge , zombient , abandoned house,
kosmischefurcht , drone and beat, and UBM (uncontrollable body movement)
</p>
<p>Also a cd release for new Nezzy Idy "Infusoria" on Exit Industries</p>
<p>At Orbis Nex. http://www.vialmagazine.com/breadcrumbs.html</p>
<p>
This is the last Katabatik event at Orbis Nex: Celebrating that which is
obscure, cold, weird, and forever underground in bay area electronic
music. Do not miss!
</p>
<p>
All proceeds from the door will benefit imprisoned victims of the what has
come to be called "green scare". For more information on this subject:
http://www.greenscare.org.
</p>