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1: cicadas coming out of the ground slowly, then faster, surrounding and wanting to lay near some other animal friend i had, they began to swarm and i had to run inside to avoid the buzzing cloud.
2: professional waterslide rider. love triangle of deception and betrayal.
3: dirtbike offroad escape, pulled over and ticketed several times, cops finally catch me again after i had gotten high.
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big slinky reptilian felines in a huge cage in a house... one of them escapes and is making the normal house cats very panicky. nobody [family] in the house believes that there is anything wrong///
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Home |
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if you stay naive you can remain innocent of everything.
"the exposure of innocence is a lie"
the joy you share with others is also my joy.
give me all your attempts to make me sorry. to addict me to sorrow.
it is fun to wander into the clouds but carelessness attracts malignant forces and to stay high you walk on our backs.
i'm either really ignorant about knowing what i want or really persistent about getting what i want
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i do love you: the precious few who still support me in the dark hours* of my Metamorphosis.
when my skin is tender with the remnants of broken sentiments and i strike-out** at thy delicate touch.
i realize this process hurts us both.
also do i love all of Mankind and its putrid over-emphasis on mundaneness***, for it understandeth not its circumstance (yet).
the thick-headed throngs grow thicker and the Masters must rise ever further**** to meet the challenges.
then also do i love the Masters who teach: there is no Work worth doing but t
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experimentation = invocation = divination
alchemy = goetia = qabalah
SCIENCE = RELIGION = PHILOSOPHY
dualism = monism = nihilism
2 = 1 = 0
wisdom = understanding = knowledge
3 = 8 = 1
trances/paths: mechanica/fortune = joy/sorrow = self/less
0 = 3 = 2
Mercury = Sulphur = Salt
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the strongest weapon is the mirror
i fight my enemies with naught else
for self-centeredness is the most self-less possibility
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I need no one. No one is worth my time. You are fucking twisted and I'm done telling you so. Bye twitter, last post.
there was a time when I gave up everything for this race. But it was a mistake, you are fucking cruel, replaceable and left me in your shit
You built tall walls to keep me out but keep your selfish shit on display. You shit on my life everyday. Fuck you, you're disgusting.
Just do what you do best and leave me the fuck alone
You're fucking sick. You empower yourselves through abuse only to abuse others. I fucking hate you
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you may love me unconditionally but you do not want me.
if you do then what's stopping you?
what has always stopped you?
is it that i show weakness, humanness?
i cannot constantly play God and let you transgress all modes of my human selfness.
i am meant to be like this: vulnerable.
how you truly feel about me you will not say.
you prefer power but your power corrupts you, to balance power takes responsibility.
i gave you everything i had to give.
and you rejected me because i hurt.
because my ego takes power occasionally.
when yo
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2300 University Ave. #202 |
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Bookshelf 2011 (obtained, built, filled) |
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webcamstills2011 |
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((snap)) |
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Happy '11 (Received THOTH Shower Curtain) |
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Sunset from Oakland Hills |
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funny how we think we can see so much of our world with the naked eye - not so!
i've come to this approach to life: be excited for death yet focused on life... death in this shell to me seems like the beginning of high adventure...
yeah, but you need an ultra elite electron microscope to get those badass shots
normal ones are good for bigger stuff///less alien stuff
yet still pretty alien
yeah the material world seems so big and uncharted but comparing that with the kabbalistik idea that even the material is just one of 10 spheres [or dimension
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Mars-1 Piece on Haight St. SF |
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Void Tactical Media presents: x24 (Bayarea) |
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TripleGoddess presents: Ritual::Synesthesia |
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HP_VII.1 (Opening Showing) |
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i apologize to my friends for being assumptive and over imaginative and for
giving confusing and/or paranoid and/or selfish communicationss
i am learning through "failure" at this
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"the object of Incarnation is to obtain its reactions to its relations with other incarnated Beings and to observe theirs with each other"
"incarnation" here is speaking about incarnation out of the supernal triad and down into the actual and material zones where one angel (magickal clothing of the microcosm) can observe another.
"a social life and serious yoga cannot coexist"
social life does indeed refer to the above object.
but "serious yoga" isn't really my thing at this point in the career of my angel.
serious yoga refers to
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the illusion of free will (in organisms)
creates the reality of free will
(for their creator and the creature)
because they act on that sensation of free will.
so since they think they are in control of their organism,
they can truly act outside the expectations of their creator
('new' things are possible!).
if they weren't given this possibility [also called "ego"] they would simply behave intuitively in accordance with the will of the all
[and all would get no newness in its/our universe and newness is fun [for us all]].
'the' creator h
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HALT_2010 |
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Sunbathing Toadstools |
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Iowa Farm Barn Fire |
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Brother's Chameleon |
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xdrss0r |
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you said i needed love
and sunshine
you said you'd give it
for a moment
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Love and Sunbeams |
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Waspnestbuild |
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trys to unwind culture by passively offering foreign objects up for inspection /// has become the fool on the hill
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Statuz |
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Last drops |
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honing the netweb glue trap
find thee others
where be u
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is that y we've been grown in this vat?
bcs a sorrow-enshrouded world(view) creates the best kind of art [when one overcomes it]?
we are a steaming pile of creative spark ripe for the dumping back in to the galactic mind stew
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almost no one can properly define what race is without an anthropological degree.
racism tends to self-generate.
white people killing blacks makes blacks hate whites. makes whites hate whites. makes whites that already hated blacks hate them more for being upset.
the linguistic mechanics of "black and white" is a disgustingly warring designation of humans that creates prejudicial stereotyping. we aren't all brown?
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Zero Gauge Titanium Tunnel + Six Gauge Horn Hoop |
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Audio Jamming+Track Building |
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Finding true love and true enjoyment can be pretty detrimental to the human mind
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True |
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Moth thru Glass |
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you'd love me if i didn't care
where i was
how i was received
who cared
and y
is sentimentality my biggest weakness?
that i care?
teach me how to detach
tech me how to be
unconditionally
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Detachment Entrapment |
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Storm Cloud Configurations |
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.. and yet the more we fight, the more rights they steal.. does fighting now mean shutting up?
this is not a civil rights era, you will not be granted rights in response to direct actions, you will be punished because the majority actually would rather support tyranny over freedom and live in their little comfort cages of false security. the police have orders to treat you as if you are simply 'getting in the way (of their peacekeeping)' if you are engaged in action challenging to the establishment then your rights are basically waived.
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"i gonna fight ya with my heart and soul" |
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Lightning Study |
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i will be stoking the cleansing fire
nervous they are, those that wish to live without giving. the more they draw guns, the more nervousness they reveal. their sinking financial projections, the controllers/bankers know and they are so so frightened. fear turns to insidious plans. total collapse is now inevitable.
Sean Maccracken Since at least the bronze age this same time bomb has been ticking.
Laïlamlith Nebulæ interesting position we are in that we get to experience it.. that is, if i can find a way to tolerate the agonies of the final birt
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Santa Maria |
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Found Old Ouija Board |
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Crystals |
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Blnnk |
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| 441 |
1-performing full moon ritual out in the field (which was specifically geared towards contacting the astral body) [2010-03-30@2AM]
2-having partially achieved a wonder-trance (via transmuting a sorrow-trance) which i felt under the spell of when i first saw the skull (so the find was perhaps a direct reward for achieving that state at that time)... moments after seeing the skull i saw the coyote about 50ft away burst out of the trees and run off [2010-03-30@11AM]
3-before dragging it back (/last night) i had this strange notion that
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Astral Gateway Skull |
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Animae |
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one nothing -> one source -> one playground
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Growth |
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... would've been better in psilocybin-vision. Perhaps then the 75% of the audience that did not realize that the dragon was actually a symbol for the inner-demon of illusion called Choronzon and that the entire film was actually a multi-layered metaphorical symbol of incredible subtlety. The film masterfully encourages the masses to banish said demon thereby creating new beginnings (see: 11) AKA accomplishing the magickal work.
The "place" called Wonderland is used to describe how Nature approaches the "individual" via a series of ordeals in order
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Alice (in Wonderland (in 3D)) |
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| 456 |
only creating internal frictions concerning "one's own" morality of "one's own" actions can be said to be "false will" (as in opposition to the Thelemic idea of True Will)
all will is one will above the abyss, likewise, there true and false do not exist
Anything in quotes above is a conventionalized lie concerning the nature of Self
am i still too lazy to join the white school?
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Genre Playlists |
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stir my no-thing-trance
The purpose of conscious life is to learn lessons about the nature of creation (the verb) and to add to the delicate fine subtle fabric thereunto
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LAYLALAI |
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OverStimulated (Twin Cities, MN) |
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Tree Haus in Minneapolis |
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DESIRE DEMANDS THAT I DO NOT DEMAND
FOR DEMANDED DESIRE FULFILLMENT IS NOT WHOLISTIC
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DESIRE DEMANDS |
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cogito ergo sum
the boundaries that i can *sense* are my controllable boundaries
i am, because i can cognize my own existence
the ego becomes necessary once more, at the level of interacting with people
when you cannot cognize that you are them. I FEEL the boundary, even though
it doesn't OBJECTIVELY exist... the only way to treat people correctly is to
(assume you are individuals and?) treat them how you want to be treated.
we cannot assume that we are one thing because that FEELS incorrect... for
safety's sake.
sum, ergo ego.
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Forestpsy Covers |
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Eye d |
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from the Mattress Cloud Bed |
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| 279 |
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Mindoutpsyde & Ascension Presents: Gratitude - A Celebration of Life |
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| 733 |
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January First Blue Moon |
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gits2oniphone3 |
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Kataspazmass |
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Boundaries bind, the yoke frees.
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Binding = Freedom |
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Not Indiana, Not Idaho, Not Ohio |
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Sunset over the West |
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Travelogue |
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Tiburon View |
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Vsnares show |
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Venetian Snares & Wisp |
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Wall Final |
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Pulling Apart Seven Years |
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Running through mansion evading a group of young adults with
guns. Find a bathroom to hide in. Ceiling of bathroom turns
into a portal. Portal leads to large underground crawlspace
with large sacks of money.
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Novelty Trough Today |
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| 452 |
no one seems to care about other people's darkness.. so i'm just sealing it off until i trust that someone truly is
healing seems pretty much a personal thing, trying to help is like a termite trying to assist a NASA mission...
the rejection i feel is not really anyone else's concern
i guess i only tried to include other's in it because i was too weak to be ok with taking time to disconnect
i don't really think it would help anyone heal
whenever i include people in the details of it it leads to disaster
plus i will not allow the chance of ne
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Disappearance Take 2 |
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Warm Leatherette |
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Step on My Face |
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Hexagram Inking |
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Hangars Liquides label collection cover art |
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1420 Hannah Ln. |
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Apocalibra |
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last night: car was stolen, miranda was there trying to help
two nights ago: teleporting snakes in the back of a van, yuri driving
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Un consciousss |
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Fungus Fest Poster in Sienna, Italy |
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Italia 2009 |
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Katabatik Metacommunications Platform@5lowershop, SF |
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| 501 |
mind and body are both mind
the shaman must live at the edge of the village
off the beaten path of culture
healing the sick
through lifeforce connect
informational downloads
through psychotropic ingestion
locks and keys appear
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Effort = Surrender |
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EDIT
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| 378 |
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Teen Suicide pres: Sickboy, Droon, Belladonnakillz |
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Black Ring |
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Psykovsky (Live) |
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moving through an aqua channel [not really a river - maybe 30ft across].
come upon an edge ending at an immense waterfall [maybe 10-15 second freefall to the bottom].
group of us are there with some sort of instructor. lizzy is there, speaking about the jump-to-come and the backpak with our already-thrashed food.
my heart is throbbing with anticipation [fear of extremely-far freefalls into water is a very common element in my dreams].
most of the group goes over, waiting and watching becomes a difficult endeavor.
i am the last in our grou
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Plunge |
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(((main-images))) |
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(((title))) |
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Tabular Attribute Map Selections : 36,834,816,41
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Tabular Attribute Map Selections |
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Tabular Attribute Map Selections : 36,834,816,833,41,835
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Waxxx |
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2=1=0! :)
all aspects reconcilable...
boundaries are temporary illusions...
the division is for the chance of union and beyond moral judgement...
though i do agree it is harmful for this species to continue its blind faith in the dual, i realize it has gotten us where it has...
also, i believe that magick can be used as a tool of nondual training since it seems to me to be simply yoga in reverse ["conquering god" on the flip side of "dissolving into god"... the two directions can be balanced in a harmony]
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Dual Reply |
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still processing this...... the more i reflect the more amazing it feels.... some highlights:
the soundsystem camps were so so pleasing to see out in that setting after years of bay area undergrounds... all my acquaintances from that scene were there... the drugs were amazing and i had some of the prettiest and most intense visions ever.... m3sc4line [first time], 5hr00ms, L25, 2-Ci and K were all in my system by the end of the weekend!... the presence of "the other" was at times so overwhelming at one point i literally thought the campgrounds had
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AMF13 Journal |
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EDIT
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| 445 |
watching the labyrinth walls
blueprinting metamorphosis along its way
i/o balancing....
[the ego *is* a structure:
"false" in its pretenses,
"evil" in its raw expression
and essentially "hollow" as it may be,
it contains a "personality",
which is a dualing input/output stream of pure lifeforce]
...all the while viewing this apparent dual as illusory,
a cultural artifact...
pure lifeforce flow!
true will
or the guardian angel
represents
the most proper
egoic veil i/o
or lifeforce dynamic
for the individual in quest
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starting hir day, rebirth, change fractal cascade |
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| 287 |
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Autonomous Mutant Festival XIII |
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AMF13 Photos |
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Wild Wild Whomp@The Bordello, Oakland, CA |
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Joshday @Edinburgh Castle, SF, CA |
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Teacompression@Vulcan, Oakland, CA |
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Clairity's Bon Voyage benefit@Skylark, SF |
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Surefire presents Distance @The Triple Crown, Market+Octavia, SF |
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Dream 
(Subject)Fortune 
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Friends 
Anatomy 
oOoOO, Hollagramz, Picture Plane 
Photograph 
Toys 
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Streetart 
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Autonomous Mutant Festival XV 
Autonomous Mutant Festival XIII 
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Bone Temple Psonick Teahouse@AMF