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i love mine path, it is perfect. i will do all in my power to free it to the utmost. no paths dictate worth towards my own.
from now on i will realize what other people do is not ever an attack on me. Even if they feel they're attacking me it is impossible for violence not to be only an attack on yourself and who am I to assume anyone else's opinion?
that my negative reactions to them come out of rejections of some part of myself.
to not cave and lash-out from the control attempts made by these broken self-worth programs (which attempt to insulat
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huh
this rando drunk jock type dude @ 1015
said the darndest things....
something about how i'm "too nice"
in the face of the harsh and fucked up world
and also that i open myself up to all
transgressions by being "too beautiful"
these are paraphrases....
don't quite know what to make of it...
don't really care too much..
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adventuring through a forest with some kids
come across this young girl who takes us down a path
to come to this closedup house, like all squashed together
she had been sleeping in a little section where the house
meets the ground and there was a sleeping bag there like a cocoon
we somehow hit some button that caused the house to open up
we saw bones of people in the cross-section of the basement
we went into the front door to find a nicely kept house
no one was there
we split up to look around
it seemed like it had been a nazi general
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not only do all passed events make up what you currently are, but all future events as well - this is called closed time-cube cosmology.
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THE LE MA
is the label of
the resonation
on all planes
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working on staying there (which cannot directly be worked on, though raising
awareness can help).
want to feel ok again. can't seem to discover what the fuck is going on in me. i
guess i feel neglected, worthless, uncreative... the main illusions of egoic
control. it's like a knife is stuck deeply and its wound radiates fire. smoke
from that fire clouds all perception.
resistance there. my own choice. to be alive is to resist. i can only lessen it
through love... as you aptly noted as your intention: "ego - quiet"
all clarity so fleeting...
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grateful for
the dreams
last night
floating across
the open desert
jumping
flipping
spinning
if i wish
i need not
come down
accepted there
weaving patterns
with others
my mother watches
from the sidelines
composites of friends,
friends to come,
families to come.
she seems to mock me
but i feel her adoration.
floating near me.
i go on and on
spin around to
see the direction i'm moving in
and bam
a tree is right there
my legs catch me against it.
that tree is in a yard
near a small old
white farmhouse.
her fath
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unless one is attempting to de-power some aspect that has been talking too loudly: calling anything illusion is meaningless, as all is thus. all current illusion is the will of the all.
a possibly useful filter: is something based on rejection? That is the darkness (from voyager perspective/plane of duality).
Though All is Light on the Absolute plane.
the dark is the delusion of the MANY in the voyager... that delusion expresses itself in many ways but is avoidable IF THOU WILT
One (of The Many) can accept* (which means compassion) and e
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How Weird Street Fair 2009 |
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Interdimensional Art Show Tour 2009 |
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Brutal Sound Effects Festival 58 with 5lowershop |
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{connect visually in illustrator}
the ego is a "protective" layer/program,
leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system.
it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self
it is a system that is created by feedback from your environment
it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an unknowable assumption
about how others perceive thee.
ego underhandedly tries to control
other incarnated beings
to "make" them do things
to bolster that ego
back into safety-mode
when it is alarmed by
possibilities of deat
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Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming
Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to its ecstasy. it means a shedding of illusory constructs, realizing true blends 100% into false. these and other constructs make us who we are currently. the infinite possibility of existence, fluctuating compliments, all beautiful
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Balance Winds Oozing Dichotomic Awareness |
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Katabatik @Oasis, Oakland |
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Effort Confusion '09 |
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Shark Attack @Annie's Social Club |
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Night Kitchen presents Richard Devine@Li Po Lounge: 916 Grant Ave @ Washington, SF |
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iPhone Grid Glitch |
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i had this dream where i was this creature.
there was a girl and boy there, they were a couple.
i asked them if they felt nothing for me.
they acted ashamed to say yes.
another creature like me appears.
though i know it is a strong opponent
i have no fear nor do i believe
there is any possibility but victory.
i can jump and fall down immense
distances with this body.
there is no harming it.
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Large Dolphinskin Creature |
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567 |
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Dodocalypse@Hemlock |
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Soft Target |
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Ellen Allien Djing |
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Ellen Allien@Mighty (119 Utah, SF) |
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Triple Goddess Invades Synchronize |
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The Final Katanexus |
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LAST Katanexus |
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Final Shark Attack |
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I find that if i engage to rapidly changing music i can find myself sending myself instructions from ahead of time.
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Katanexus - Sinister Dance Party w/ MNEMOTH, Zanbai, Heartworm |
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Monsters of Love 2009 @5lowershop |
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Red alligator clips |
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The moment one suppresses the true self* is the moment that that self attempts to
manipulate the way others perceive it. This is the physical-body-oriented
ill-intent that the ego expresses from the human organism... Which can spiral into
mental pathology for many modern persons like myself. Though no thing can be
good nor evil. The human entity bound to time must make the choice they tend to
feel is most proper under the banners of wholeness, wholesomeness and
connectedness (which the ego attempts to revolt against) if they are attempting
th
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Morality and Destiny are Matters of Dimensionality |
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Katanexus (Jan '09) |
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Havocsound: Wide Awake |
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...just had a dream in which i became pretty much fully conscious towards the
end of. i could not break out of it, trapped in the subconscious...
in the dream i had woken up in my bed (how cinematique) and there
were people in my house taking all my stuff away, cleaning and
painting over all the items i had placed on my wall.
after fighting with them and leaving the house to see if anyone could
help me - i started yelling "it's not real, this isn't real". people
just looked at me as they do in this situation...*
*of
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Trapt |
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Creatureface |
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Lulabelle au de Toilette |
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Purchased "Vision and Voice" Hardcover |
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Exploding Fuel Injectors? |
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Coco 2008 |
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Dental |
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Mom '08 |
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Animosity, Drumcorps, Embers, Eustacian, Realicide @ 5lowershop |
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ps3.naruto.character_select.sakura.kakashi |
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Blockade |
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Brokebmw |
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During/Before Katanexus |
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Dispenser |
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568 |
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Detrimental Disco Wibble Tour: Venetian Snares, Otto von Schirach |
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407 |
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Katanexus (Dec '08): Realicide, Aymeric Hainaux, Amandroid |
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Galleria Purcha$er A$$ Re$ting $tation |
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Mars-1 Piece on 6th St. SF |
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Winterkälte Show (During) |
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Winterkälte@dna |
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This Did Not Happen |
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Makeuptestdummy |
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458 |
engage to the moment
[past and future worry does no good]
desire for result is lame
[experience of the process is beauty]
ask your angel to act through you
[expressing its desires in the form of impulses]
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Mantric Programs |
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574 |
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Katanexus (Nov '08): RMS, Dimentia, Prion, Fluorescent Grey |
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Happycamp@goldengate park |
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Xrin Arms@5lowershop |
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Is Not |
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That would be a Thrust |
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it's my birthday
what the fuck do i care about that?
so fucking drunk
so split-knuckled
fucking dumb drunk
knuckles against wood
let me in
i'm alone on the cold concrete
of my expensive apartment
yet not alone
yet so not fucking alone
so alone
crusting blood trickles
knuckles
now i want more
where did i leave those razors
fresh cut arms
wiping blood against the pages
it's a code you see
see it opening up
so drunk
it's my birthday
give me all of it now
give me what's in the icebox
give me my beautiful fungiqueen
now so trip
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ghostbeetlebloodwater |
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Otherworld Halloween 2008 |
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Deafguild |
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580 |
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Katanexus, Oct '08 |
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S.P.A.Z. & TripleGoddess presents: Bog Bass |
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Yerba Buena Park, SF |
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embodying pure emanations of nature
biting the white hot blade of love
illuminating exit holes in the death-cycle
for every action not-taken there exists a concrescing birth-orgasm
my mind rejects your dogma like viral-infection
the drama is nice but what about that climax?
(there's no such thing as too much lubrication*)
what are the limitations really?
you think i don't know how to engineer the street-hustla-turned-rapper lifestyle?
this is a global joint.
1+i
*there will always be friction
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Birthgasm |
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575 |
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Shutter |
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5lowershop presents Hecate |
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586 |
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Katanexus (August): Hecate, Nada, Aviatrix |
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Suspiria@Harlot |
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Bodyheat, feat Juan Atkins |
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560 |
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Obnoxious |
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I am within you, and of you.
At any slice in time of my existence any number of hyperdimensional situations are taking place, conducted by "the Collective Unconscious", socalled
which could mean that the gateway to hyperlight communication must also exist, if one were to be so inclined as to invoke thine brothers and sisters!
which also means ego death
subject-object blurring
Dyana -> Samadhi
According to Hinduism, dhyana is considered as a stage of awakening in such precious condition where you get obvious rid of maya (the false expression
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Numinosity |
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576 |
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Katanexus - July '08 |
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SeakOne Piece |
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Belt goes |
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Dependence Day |
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Retrofuture |
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Pink Saturday |
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hd Projector |
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Blow Up (feat. Zombie Nation) |
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Zombie Nation Live @blowup@rickshawstop, sf |
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from Naught |
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Trigger (feat Lilofee) |
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i dreamt about you
you were dragging me through middle america on a jet ski
the farm lands were flooded
a large fish jumped out of the water as if to bite off your head but its nose only brushed the top of your hair as we sped by, at this moment time slowed way down
(i feel like you were a man earlier in the dream and had to kill me for some reason but that didn't actually end up happening)
later you and some other friends were entranced by a magician making you feel like you were drowning in a pool and i was trying to pull you all out of the i
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Thoth |
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Universe |
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Aeon |
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Sun |
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Qoph
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Moon |
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The Emperor |
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Tower |
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(((subtitle))) :Capricorn
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(((subtitle))) :Sagittarivs
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Hanged Man |
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(Subject)Fortune |
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Hermit |
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Lust |
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Lovers |
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Hierophant |
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Star |
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Empress |
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(Attribute)Magus |
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(Path)Fool |
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I dreamt I was a paratrooper-type soldier in a war. I kept thinking it was WWII, but then it seemed like it was post-modern-apocalyptic...
At any rate, we were in an abandoned city, hiding the helicopter in the metal skeleton of a tall building. We did not contact anyone outside the chopper for the length of the dream.
The only personal thing I had with me were photos of a friend of mine.
At one point we left the hiding spot and flew somewhere to do something, I cannot remember what happened here.
This morning I received a TXT from my friend ex
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Venice Beach 2008 |
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Walking |
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Xanopticon, Endif, 666Gangstaz @DNA |
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Would you say to thine angel How can I best serve mankind? ? Or perhaps you wish to dance in the fields and build narrartives of enchanted contextual situatia in order to perpetuate The Great Mystery? Can these coincide? I believe so. And belief is all I have. I'd like to do this by creating and showing physical representations of the astral (an infinite source and playground for the creation of sublime beauty).
I dreamt I had developed and maintained hyperdimensional instruments to probe
and scan the astral dimension in order to gain a broader
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Thine Angel |
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Home on the Range |
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Bridge Destroy |
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Shared Experience |
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Viz |
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Workstation |
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Studio Rearrangement 2008 |
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I had a dream that I was asking a researcher about audio recordings of whales in an office styled room. The researcher told me they had a large tank in the back that could hold a whale for listening purposes. We went out to the tank to see a large sail boat pulling in from a channel connecting it to the (natural) bay nearby. The tank was empty (of whales) so a wealthy man was allowed to park his yacht there. When the boat got into the tank the skipper got out and dove in with scuba gear and a harpoon. I was told that sometimes crocodiles get through
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