{connect visually in illustrator}
the ego is a "protective" layer/program,
leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system.
it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self
it is a system that is created by feedback from your environment
it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an unknowable assumption
about how others perceive thee.
ego underhandedly tries to control
other incarnated beings
to "make" them do things
to bolster that ego
back into safety-mode
when it is alarmed by
possibilities of death
or pain caused by insecurity/dis-integration/un-acceptance,
naught else.
ego tries to cling to feelings,
that is what feeds it,
by negatively cycling the feeling
until a breaking point is reached
and the voyager lashes-out
thereby sending violent disruption
into social environ and connected beings.
it is therefor irrelevant to spirit-ape
for the spirit-ape desires peace
and freedom to operate closest
to its true will, that is:
with a minimum of internal friction.
the desires of spirit (emotion)
transcend the concerns of
the physical plane of reality.
though "controlling" environment
is part of the greater self-illusion
and not necessarily egoic
(ego is a sub-program of "self"
that attempts to save that self
from social "depravity").
though all control is illusion,
hallucinated-self
has ability to "manipulate"
under compassion-mode,
but is not always the case...
awareness of acceptance choice
can de-power voyager control-reaction.
ego can never know compassion
therefor increasing awareness of its methods
is all we can do.
cannot force compassion upon it -
that only bolsters it more
as it basks in the attention.
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Actions only make attainment more possible,
they cannot attain on their own.
Honest surrender is a state
not an action.
Thou wilt attain at the time proper
for thine own nature.
Which means without
neurosis of divisions,
without resisting
The One True Way.
Awareness is tool of true will.
Pushing the self to "accept" is the most subversive kind of control!
Awareness limited by coincidence control center=spiritcore.
achievement: illusory, pride: egoic emanation.
true will is placenta connecting goddess to entity...
the fluidic connectivity
of the lashing Basilisk,
up and down
it moves its head
in response to
Her Writhing Love Dance
to drink from Her Arched Body
to take tiny tastes
of succinct succulent subtle sublimity,
all-ways to Her.
i am the serpent:
exemplifying intensity
in both directions,
wearing and concealing
emotion,
streamlining and breaking-down
antiquated machinery.
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figured out what to say to someone when they say "i'm sorry"
if you'd like to be obtuse and express your own feelings: "i'm not"
truer (non-egoic) "i" doesn't necessarily need or want to be controlled by sorrow
truest "i" not controlled by sorrow in any case
self-illusion emanates sorrow
egoic veil lashes-out in fear from that sorrowful feeling
attempting to socially control others into strengthening itself
ego degrades as well as cherishes itself
to induce dualed-perpetuation of itself
for primate-derived control over social environment
current socio-cultural environment creates and enforces egoic worldview
due to lack of awareness due to fear of pain which emanates from ego control center
peek-a-boo, bestfriend, i see you!
ego not enemy
ego attempts to protect primate
voyager seeing it as such was egos control plan all along
(the voyager's un-plan includes all plans of ego)
playing with illusion of "effort" on part of the felt-self only enforces it
seeing intentionality split perpetuates more splitting
true surrender is a state not a method
awareness not action but two-way connection to spiritcore
only love can take the ego
ego trying to protect the primate
we don't need it anymore
we must not evilify it
will of the all
emanates love-bonding capability.
egoic and later self veil falls
if and when
it is your One True Will
to lose them.
Will descends as the self rises up towards loving connection.
complete connection of these means Ecstasy of Obliteration
burning away irrelevant and antiquated habits of ego control center
eye desire more cosmological awareness....
"love under will" means Love as the capability platform
and Will as the dynamic aspect of that platform - the going.
dualed system necessary to create copies of spiritcore
and view ascendence patterns of them as emergent creative light
ego not enemy but possibility of novelty
infinite singularity/infinite space=1 and 0=duality platform=hadit/nuit playground
1=0
2 (multiplicity) only exists within ego construct within voyager
2=0, 2=1
when personal will is purified by love - true will flows like fountain
the self-construct may then emanate purer light and move toward complete integration w/spiritcore=death=life, amen
consciousness a holographic copy of godhead with limiting programs called ego
it is the ultimate conundrum
cosmic giggle
it is a game
voyager never and always wins
alchemical philosophers stone
magnum opus is a catch 22
Does attention and affection between people always perpetuate ego?
not necessarily, intimate connection can be had without playing off pain-fear of voyagers in question, pleasure still available without attachments.
Difference between illusion of perceived-self and egoic programming...
ego seeks to manipulate for its illusion of self-benefit.
ego seeks to take RESPONSIBILITY for actions which are in actuality pure expressions of the totality of nature, NOT itself.
perceived self (the experiencer) does not do this, it just is, it is unified and blames naught.
Credit to J.C. Gold for the "Labyrinth Games" idea. His listing of them in the appendix of American Book of the Dead is both humorous and frightening, my favorite example:
#34. window created, scary shapes appear at window game
