amniöt Experiencer Notebook

you may love me unconditionally but you do not want me.
if you do then what's stopping you?

what has always stopped you?
is it that i show weakness, humanness?
i cannot constantly play God and let you transgress all modes of my human selfness.
i am meant to be like this: vulnerable.
how you truly feel about me you will not say.
you prefer power but your power corrupts you, to balance power takes responsibility.

i gave you everything i had to give.
and you rejected me because i hurt.
because my ego takes power occasionally.
when you turn away.
all i ask is for mercy.
help cleanse me of my ignorance.
if i could understand then i can overpower it.

you do what is easy
because you don't like to sleep alone.
i thought i gave you a new home
what about me wasn't enough?
you were too high to remember.
i was too high to not notice and record every acute detail.
tell me, tell me, tell me, am i accursed?
i forgive you but i do not trust you