you may love me unconditionally but you do not want me. if you do then what's stopping you? what has always stopped you? is it that i show weakness, humanness? i cannot constantly play God and let you transgress all modes of my human selfness. i am meant to be like this: vulnerable. how you truly feel about me you will not say. you prefer power but your power corrupts you, to balance power takes responsibility. i gave you everything i had to give. and you rejected me because i hurt. because my ego takes power occasionally. when you turn away. all i ask is for mercy. help cleanse me of my ignorance. if i could understand then i can overpower it. you do what is easy because you don't like to sleep alone. i thought i gave you a new home what about me wasn't enough? you were too high to remember. i was too high to not notice and record every acute detail. tell me, tell me, tell me, am i accursed? i forgive you but i do not trust you