Journal
Typical Children 99
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You are Not
You do not cross the abyss; you do not set sail on those black waters with sword in hand to strike at the goal; there is no attainment of mastery to pin to the lapel, no experience of the beyond for you to know; the you as you know yourself comes to an end, the you that you know is a self-perpetuating program in the mental ...
Journal Entry Universe 2020-08-28
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Metatron burns...
Metatron burns in your heart my dear
The lady and man in one...
Journal Entry
Dream 2017-10-29
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A note of encouragement for my Friends
All of the most ecstatic, elated, jubilant, exciting, delicious, rewarding moments of my life are so great and so appreciated, there are no complaints here. And yet they are just as important, just as deep, just as potentially fulfilling as *this present moment*.
There is no better place or time or entity to be than he...
Harmony
Journal Entry
Friends
Cosmology 2016-09-14
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Commune
i want very much to connect more with you, my friends. i have been so overwhelmed and confused so easily in this life. i am neither silently judging you nor wanting to hide. i realize the danger and shallowness of both harsh criticism and overly excessive tenderness. i am trying to sort through how i really think and feel c...
Journal Entry
Friends 2016-02-06
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_______________________
i am tired of fighting against the terrible disdain of a planet full of imbeciles. you constantly beat me down with your hateful and negative thoughts, feelings and actions which root from the hatred and rejection of yourselves and the hearts inside that you don't accept. you do not see past the length of your eyelashes, yo...
Emotion
Friends
Thought
Journal Entry 2014-07-31
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IPShOSh
Journal Entry Language
(Type)Wisdom 2014-04-08
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Lily Book Find
Books
Thought
Connectivity
Journal Entry
Mammal 2013-07-31
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<3
Screenshot
Friends
Journal Entry 2013-06-19
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Big tropical space
hotel condo tropical
parents owned but gone
setting up a party there
jetskiing in foamy charred ocean waves, closing jetski plugs, beachouse, man talking about making a job out of teaching jetski classes
restaurant with fancy bathrooms. big open area, box w/evil sorceress queen, torturing half the ppl in box with golden...
Journal Entry
Dream
Plantae 2013-03-10
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Dreamhaus
Dream
Screenshot
Friends
Journal Entry 2013-01-17
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Grimey
under my grime is spit-shine
the lightbulb hum harmonizes in and out with the music
eye cross dress
the vision will go as far as you let it, it can always go further
learned a lot about self-sex
agitated erection develops from astral projection doubling
the 1-to-2 lengthening
the holy books of chaos magick
chaos bei...
Journal Entry
Emotion 2011-12-11
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new luna in Virgo
1: cicadas coming out of the ground slowly, then faster, surrounding and wanting to lay near some other animal friend i had, they began to swarm and i had to run inside to avoid the buzzing cloud.
2: professional waterslide rider. love triangle of deception and betrayal.
3: dirtbike offroad escape, pulled over and tickete...
Journal Entry
Dream 2011-08-19
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luna in Taurus
inside noah's restaurant, it's more like a spa, i met a goth-punk girl who is expressive about being a lesbian. we seemed interested in eachother despite her adamence about only liking girls. i go to take a shower in this restaurant-spa, the ppl i'm with don't seem to notice me undressing lots of crazy different kinds of cl...
Journal Entry
Dream 2011-08-16
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luna full in aquarius/pisces cusp
big slinky reptilian felines in a huge cage in a house... one of them escapes and is making the normal house cats very panicky. nobody [family] in the house believes that there is anything wrong///...
Journal Entry
Dream 2011-08-14
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luna in Capricorn
suburban house party w/l, left w/j to go in to a city bcs he wanted more dancing, went into a mall with a store with glass cases full of metal snake pieces, police are there, they ask where i am coming from, i said i moved here from iowa recently, they said this is the guy, they stuck me with a long poison metal rod and the...
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Dream 2011-08-12
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( )
Screenshot
Journal Entry 2011-06-07
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Basilisk of Light + p.VI
if you stay naive you can remain innocent of everything.
"the exposure of innocence is a lie"
the joy you share with others is also my joy.
give me all your attempts to make me sorry. to addict me to sorrow.
it is fun to wander into the clouds but carelessness attracts malignant forces and to stay high you walk on our...
(Type)Wisdom
Friends
Journal Entry 2011-04-15
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Vivid Dream
This dream wasn't like the others It was a dark warehouse like the others But darker Too dark We enter groundfloor There was a group (5) that split Then just two of us (Liz) We are in a strange room with what appears to be a shaft with large pipes running through it that leads sort of both up and out. The monsters d...
Dream
Friends
Journal Entry 2011-03-21
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Masters, Mankind, Metamorphosis
i do love you: the precious few who still support me in the dark hours* of my Metamorphosis.
when my skin is tender with the remnants of broken sentiments and i strike-out** at thy delicate touch.
i realize this process hurts us both.
also do i love all of Mankind and its putrid over-emphasis on mundaneness***, for...
(Type)Wisdom
Thought
Friends
Journal Entry 2011-03-09
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Trinitempli O3O
experimentation = invocation = divination
alchemy = goetia = qabalah
SCIENCE = RELIGION = PHILOSOPHY
dualism = monism = nihilism
2 = 1 = 0
wisdom = understanding = knowledge
3 = 8 = 1
trances/paths: mechanica/fortune = joy/sorrow = self/less
0 = 3 = 2
Mercury = Sulphur = Salt
...
(Type)Wisdom
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2011-03-04
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MIRRORACLE
the strongest weapon is the mirror
i fight my enemies with naught else
for self-centeredness is the most self-less possibility...
Emotion
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2011-03-04
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I am death
I need no one. No one is worth my time. You are fucking twisted and I'm done telling you so. Bye twitter, last post.
there was a time when I gave up everything for this race. But it was a mistake, you are fucking cruel, replaceable and left me in your shit
You built tall walls to keep me out but keep your selfish shit...
Friends
Journal Entry 2011-02-26
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Basilisk of Light - p.IV
you may love me unconditionally but you do not want me.
if you do then what's stopping you?
what has always stopped you?
is it that i show weakness, humanness?
i cannot constantly play God and let you transgress all modes of my human selfness.
i am meant to be like this: vulnerable.
how you truly feel about me y...
Friends
Emotion
Journal Entry 2011-01-27
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Depths
funny how we think we can see so much of our world with the naked eye - not so!
i've come to this approach to life: be excited for death yet focused on life... death in this shell to me seems like the beginning of high adventure...
yeah, but you need an ultra elite electron microscope to get those badass shots
normal one...
(Type)Wisdom
Journal Entry 2010-12-03
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Apologiae Exacerbacione
i apologize to my friends for being assumptive and over imaginative and for
giving confusing and/or paranoid and/or selfish communicationss
i am learning through "failure" at this...
Friends
Emotion
Journal Entry 2010-11-12
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How to proceed? ((solved))
"the object of Incarnation is to obtain its reactions to its relations with other incarnated Beings and to observe theirs with each other"
"incarnation" here is speaking about incarnation out of the supernal triad and down into the actual and material zones where one angel (magickal clothing of the microcosm) can obser...
Friends
Emotion
Journal Entry 2010-11-04
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illusion + experiencer = reality
the illusion of free will (in organisms)
creates the reality of free will
(for their creator and the creature)
because they act on that sensation of free will.
so since they think they are in control of their organism,
they can truly act outside the expectations of their creator
('new' things are possible!).
if the...
Cosmology
Emotion
Journal Entry 2010-11-04
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Love and Sunbeams
you said i needed love
and sunshine
you said you'd give it
for a moment...
Friends
Journal Entry 2010-08-09
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Statuz
trys to unwind culture by passively offering foreign objects up for inspection /// has become the fool on the hill...
(Type)Wisdom
Journal Entry 2010-07-25
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Find Others
honing the netweb glue trap
find thee others
where be u...
Friends
Journal Entry 2010-07-13
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Demiurgic Growth Vat Dumping
is that y we've been grown in this vat?
bcs a sorrow-enshrouded world(view) creates the best kind of art [when one overcomes it]?
we are a steaming pile of creative spark ripe for the dumping back in to the galactic mind stew...
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2010-07-11
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Racial Murders
almost no one can properly define what race is without an anthropological degree.
racism tends to self-generate.
white people killing blacks makes blacks hate whites. makes whites hate whites. makes whites that already hated blacks hate them more for being upset.
the linguistic mechanics of "black and white" is a...
Friends
Journal Entry 2010-07-08
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True
Finding true love and true enjoyment can be pretty detrimental to the human mind...
Friends
Journal Entry 2010-06-30
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Detachment Entrapment
[hidden prologue]
you'd love me if i didn't care
where i was
how i was received
who cared
and y
is sentimentality my biggest weakness?
that i care?
teach me how to detach
tech me how to be
unconditionally...
Emotion
Yoga
Friends
Journal Entry 2010-06-23
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"i gonna fight ya with my heart and soul"
.. and yet the more we fight, the more rights they steal.. does fighting now mean shutting up?
this is not a civil rights era, you will not be granted rights in response to direct actions, you will be punished because the majority actually would rather support tyranny over freedom and live in their little comfort cag...
Journal Entry
Friends 2010-06-04
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so ready to watch society burn
i will be stoking the cleansing fire
nervous they are, those that wish to live without giving. the more they draw guns, the more nervousness they reveal. their sinking financial projections, the controllers/bankers know and they are so so frightened. fear turns to insidious plans. total collapse is now inevitable.
Sean Ma...
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Friends 2010-05-29
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Astral Gateway Skull
1-performing full moon ritual out in the field (which was specifically geared towards contacting the astral body) [2010-03-30@2AM]
2-having partially achieved a wonder-trance (via transmuting a sorrow-trance) which i felt under the spell of when i first saw the skull (so the find was perhaps a direct reward for ach...
Foundskull + Vertebrae
Journal Entry
Emotion 2010-03-31
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white journal '10
one nothing -> one source -> one playground...
Cosmology
Yoga
Journal Entry 2010-03-10
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Alice (in Wonderland (in 3D))
... would've been better in psilocybin-vision. Perhaps then the 75% of the audience that did not realize that the dragon was actually a symbol for the inner-demon of illusion called Choronzon and that the entire film was actually a multi-layered metaphorical symbol of incredible subtlety. The film masterfully encourages the...
Video
Gatherings
Journal Entry 2010-03-05
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yellow journal '10
only creating internal frictions concerning "one's own" morality of "one's own" actions can be said to be "false will" (as in opposition to the Thelemic idea of True Will)
all will is one will above the abyss, likewise, there true and false do not exist
Anything in quotes above is a conventionalized lie concerning the nat...
Harmony
Journal Entry
Cosmology 2010-03-05
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LAYLALAI
stir my no-thing-trance
The purpose of conscious life is to learn lessons about the nature of creation (the verb) and to add to the delicate fine subtle fabric thereunto...
Harmony
Journal Entry
Cosmology 2010-03-01
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DESIRE DEMANDS
DESIRE DEMANDS THAT I DO NOT DEMAND
FOR DEMANDED DESIRE FULFILLMENT IS NOT WHOLISTIC...
Emotion
Journal Entry 2010-02-16
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Cogito Ergo Sum
cogito ergo sum
the boundaries that i can *sense* are my controllable boundaries
i am, because i can cognize my own existence
the ego becomes necessary once more, at the level of interacting with people
when you cannot cognize that you are them. I FEEL the boundary, even though
it doesn't OBJECTIVELY exist... the o...
(Type)Wisdom
Friends
Journal Entry 2010-02-05
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Binding = Freedom
Boundaries bind, the yoke frees....
Thought
Journal Entry 2009-12-06
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Portal to $$$
Running through mansion evading a group of young adults with
guns. Find a bathroom to hide in. Ceiling of bathroom turns
into a portal. Portal leads to large underground crawlspace
with large sacks of money.
...
Journal Entry
Dream 2009-10-28
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Disappearance Take 2
no one seems to care about other people's darkness.. so i'm just sealing it off until i trust that someone truly is
healing seems pretty much a personal thing, trying to help is like a termite trying to assist a NASA mission...
the rejection i feel is not really anyone else's concern
i guess i only tried to include oth...
Friends
Journal Entry 2009-10-24
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Un consciousss
last night: car was stolen, miranda was there trying to help
two nights ago: teleporting snakes in the back of a van, yuri driving...
Dream
Journal Entry 2009-09-30
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Effort = Surrender
mind and body are both mind
the shaman must live at the edge of the village
off the beaten path of culture
healing the sick
through lifeforce connect
informational downloads
through psychotropic ingestion
locks and keys appear...
Hallucination
Friends
Journal Entry 2009-08-24
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Plunge
moving through an aqua channel [not really a river - maybe 30ft across].
come upon an edge ending at an immense waterfall [maybe 10-15 second freefall to the bottom].
group of us are there with some sort of instructor. lizzy is there, speaking about the jump-to-come and the backpak with our already-thrashed food.
m...
Dream
Friends
Journal Entry 2009-07-24
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Dual Reply
2=1=0! :)
all aspects reconcilable...
boundaries are temporary illusions...
the division is for the chance of union and beyond moral judgement...
though i do agree it is harmful for this species to continue its blind faith in the dual, i realize it has gotten us where it has...
also, i believe that magick can be used a...
Yoga
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2009-07-07
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AMF13 Journal
still processing this...... the more i reflect the more amazing it feels.... some highlights:
the soundsystem camps were so so pleasing to see out in that setting after years of bay area undergrounds... all my acquaintances from that scene were there... the drugs were amazing and i had some of the prettiest and most intens...
Autonomous Mutant Festival XIII
Friends
Hallucination
Journal Entry 2009-07-07
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starting hir day, rebirth, change fractal cascade
watching the labyrinth walls
blueprinting metamorphosis along its way
i/o balancing....
[the ego *is* a structure:
"false" in its pretenses,
"evil" in its raw expression
and essentially "hollow" as it may be,
it contains a "personality",
which is a dualing input/output stream of pure lifeforce]
...all t...
Harmony
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2009-06-29
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Compassion Wishes
i love mine path, it is perfect. i will do all in my power to free it to the utmost. no paths dictate worth towards my own.
from now on i will realize what other people do is not ever an attack on me. Even if they feel they're attacking me it is impossible for violence not to be only an attack on yourself and who am I to a...
Friends
Emotion
Journal Entry 2009-06-09
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Transgressions?
huh
this rando drunk jock type dude @ 1015
said the darndest things....
something about how i'm "too nice"
in the face of the harsh and fucked up world
and also that i open myself up to all
transgressions by being "too beautiful"
these are paraphrases....
don't quite know what to make of it...
don't reall...
Friends
Journal Entry 2009-06-06
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Forest Witch House
adventuring through a forest with some kids
come across this young girl who takes us down a path
to come to this closedup house, like all squashed together
she had been sleeping in a little section where the house
meets the ground and there was a sleeping bag there like a cocoon
we somehow hit some button that caus...
Journal Entry
Dream 2009-06-05
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Block Universe Plane, Emanating a No Free-Will Perspective?
not only do all passed events make up what you currently are, but all future events as well - this is called closed time-cube cosmology....
(Path)Fool
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2009-05-28
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Up-down Resonance
THE LE MA
is the label of
the resonation
on all planes...
(Path)Fool
Journal Entry 2009-05-25
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The Insulation Programming of the Emotional Sphere
working on staying there (which cannot directly be worked on, though raising
awareness can help).
want to feel ok again. can't seem to discover what the fuck is going on in me. i
guess i feel neglected, worthless, uncreative... the main illusions of egoic
control. it's like a knife is stuck deeply and its wound radiates...
Friends
Emotion
Journal Entry 2009-05-21
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LAYLA
grateful for
the dreams
last night
floating across
the open desert
jumping
flipping
spinning
if i wish
i need not
come down
accepted there
weaving patterns
with others
my mother watches
from the sidelines
composites of friends,
friends to come,
families to come.
she seems to mock me
but i feel her ...
Dream
Journal Entry
Friends 2009-05-15
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All is Arbitrary, Temporary Illusion / All is Light
unless one is attempting to de-power some aspect that has been talking too loudly: calling anything illusion is meaningless, as all is thus. all current illusion is the will of the all.
a possibly useful filter: is something based on rejection? That is the darkness (from voyager perspective/plane of duality).
Though A...
(Type)Wisdom
Yoga
Emotion
Journal Entry 2009-05-13
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AnUNioN for Σ
Journal Entry
Diagram
Yoga
Cosmology 2009-04-26
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'Understanding Nebula' Labyrinth Game
{connect visually in illustrator}
the ego is a "protective" layer/program,
leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system.
it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self
it is a system that is created by feedback from your environment
it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an u...
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2009-04-21
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Balance Winds Oozing Dichotomic Awareness
Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming
Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to i...
Friends
Cosmology
Yoga
Sky
Journal Entry 2009-04-17
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Effort Confusion '09
Cosmology
Thought
Friends
Yoga
Journal Entry 2009-04-16
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Large Dolphinskin Creature
i had this dream where i was this creature.
there was a girl and boy there, they were a couple.
i asked them if they felt nothing for me.
they acted ashamed to say yes.
another creature like me appears.
though i know it is a strong opponent
i have no fear nor do i believe
there is any possibility but victory.
i c...
Journal Entry
Dream
Friends
Bioform 2009-04-02
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Engagements
I find that if i engage to rapidly changing music i can find myself sending myself instructions from ahead of time....
Emotion
Anatomy
Connectivity
Journal Entry 2009-03-12
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Morality and Destiny are Matters of Dimensionality
The moment one suppresses the true self* is the moment that that self attempts to
manipulate the way others perceive it. This is the physical-body-oriented
ill-intent that the ego expresses from the human organism... Which can spiral into
mental pathology for many modern persons like myself. Though no thing can be
good ...
Cosmology
Friends
Journal Entry 2009-02-08
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Trapt
...just had a dream in which i became pretty much fully conscious towards the
end of. i could not break out of it, trapped in the subconscious...
in the dream i had woken up in my bed (how cinematique) and there
were people in my house taking all my stuff away, cleaning and
painting over all the items i had placed ...
Journal Entry
Dream 2009-01-07
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Mantric Programs
engage to the moment
[past and future worry does no good]
desire for result is lame
[experience of the process is beauty]
ask your angel to act through you
[expressing its desires in the form of impulses]...
Emotion
Journal Entry 2008-12-01
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ghostbeetlebloodwater
it's my birthday
what the fuck do i care about that?
so fucking drunk
so split-knuckled
fucking dumb drunk
knuckles against wood
let me in
i'm alone on the cold concrete
of my expensive apartment
yet not alone
yet so not fucking alone
so alone
crusting blood trickles
knuckles
now i want more
where did i lea...
Hallucination
Emotion
Friends
(Type)Wisdom
Journal Entry 2008-11-01
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Birthgasm
embodying pure emanations of nature
biting the white hot blade of love
illuminating exit holes in the death-cycle
for every action not-taken there exists a concrescing birth-orgasm
my mind rejects your dogma like viral-infection
the drama is nice but what about that climax?
(there's no such thing as too much lubricati...
Hallucination
Friends
Culture
(Type)Wisdom
Journal Entry 2008-09-27
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Numinosity
I am within you, and of you.
At any slice in time of my existence any number of hyperdimensional situations are taking place, conducted by "the Collective Unconscious", socalled
which could mean that the gateway to hyperlight communication must also exist, if one were to be so inclined as to invoke thine brothers and sist...
(Type)Wisdom
Harmony
Yoga
Emotion
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2008-07-21
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Thoth
i dreamt about you
you were dragging me through middle america on a jet ski
the farm lands were flooded
a large fish jumped out of the water as if to bite off your head but its nose only brushed the top of your hair as we sped by, at this moment time slowed way down
(i feel like you were a man earlier in the dream and h...
Dream
Friends
Journal Entry 2008-05-29
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Skeleton City War Photos
I dreamt I was a paratrooper-type soldier in a war. I kept thinking it was WWII, but then it seemed like it was post-modern-apocalyptic...
At any rate, we were in an abandoned city, hiding the helicopter in the metal skeleton of a tall building. We did not contact anyone outside the chopper for the length of the dream.
T...
Journal Entry
Dream
Friends 2008-05-15
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Thine Angel
Would you say to thine angel How can I best serve mankind? ? Or perhaps you wish to dance in the fields and build narrartives of enchanted contextual situatia in order to perpetuate The Great Mystery? Can these coincide? I believe so. And belief is all I have. I'd like to do this by creating and showing physical representat...
Journal Entry
Dream 2008-04-24
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Shared Experience
black and gold machine elves total astral enrapturment contents of my mind exposed and outstretched in 3-space stellar travel flip-book style navigation controller connecting with arboreal squid-gorillas -Anoml/naughtnaut ...
Hallucination
Friends
Toys
83 McAllister St. #112
Journal Entry 2008-03-15
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Whale Song
I had a dream that I was asking a researcher about audio recordings of whales in an office styled room. The researcher told me they had a large tank in the back that could hold a whale for listening purposes. We went out to the tank to see a large sail boat pulling in from a channel connecting it to the (natural) bay nearby...
Dream
Journal Entry 2008-02-25
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Simplistic Ascension Model
Yes, mind puzzles, that's what excites me- magic, hacking, visualizing, creating. And, also: The drive to dissolve mental boundaries. I noticed that few appreciate the meaning of aesthetics. why do I try so hard? it has become culturally-sanctioned to behave atrociously, I don't wish t...
Cosmology
Emotion
Journal Entry
Diagram 2007-12-30
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Belief
what you think is actually really true! what kind of pompous idea is that? that you could possibly possess truth?
what APPEARS to be true TO YOU, RIGHT NOW
...
Thought
Journal Entry 2007-11-18
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Discord
Somehow, I feel free right now.
classy clothing
a good job, for sure-
kiss him out on the street
in the cold fog of evening.
don't look at my eyes,
yours are the same-
scorpion destruction,
i know your kind well
i won't start
and nor will you.
all i want to know is-
how aware are you?
do you kn...
Friends
Emotion
Journal Entry 2007-10-11
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Naught
i once had a vision (Tetrahydrocannabinol induction) that each mind or mindset had one purpose, that being to generate Novelty. that we were in some kind of capsule hotel, each capsule containing our version of the universe perceived by us and therefore ours to make as we see fit... this is where Creativity comes into play....
Anatomy
Hallucination
Plantae
Journal Entry 2007-10-04
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Architect
There is a Mason's temple next to this building that reads: Dedicated to the Supreme Architect of the Universe...
(Path)Fool
Journal Entry 2007-09-19
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Snake Flute
I dreamt I bought a large archaic-looking recorder from someone that was dumpster diving for $5. I then brought it over to an old lot where a building used to be to show it to some people I knew. Upon playing it a black snake appeared out of the ground, then a green snake, then many many green snakes and one of them was clo...
Journal Entry
Dream
Bioform 2007-07-27
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Deepest Shade of Mushroom Blue
i have loved an xenomorph and given birth to myself as a new kind of organism guided by light stripped of all convention i am and can code interfaced with foreign information systems in a state of magical resonance infused with song and imagination show me take me hold me tell me i would also like to show you. ...
Hallucination
Emotion
Friends
Anatomy
Journal Entry 2007-07-21
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Get Out My Mind
I dreamed someone was attacking me over and over with a knife, while dodging the knife stabs the attacker would be biting me to an excessively painful level, I wonder if I was crying out in my sleep, it was that intense. I found this more interesting when I woke up and realized my brother had just had his ACL replace...
Journal Entry
Dream
Cosmology
Anatomy 2007-07-11
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Remove Your Head from Your Balloon Knot, Por Favor
A pool cut into rock where reef fish dwell.
A pool uncut, tidal formation, a striped eel basks.
Awaiting night and a return to the sea.
Orchestrating fish schools, my goggles and fins.
Slam me into sharp coral, my kayak rides waves.
The shell of a beast packed delicately in styrofoam, your new northern home.
Whitey ...
Mexico 2007
Journal Entry 2007-07-01
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System Halt
Screenshot
Journal Entry 2007-05-14
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The Dissolvement of Thought in the Engagement of the Orgasm of the Moment
Englishing will not pervert my feelings. My feelings are made of words.
Shouldn't it be: Let the best ideas win?
No, because we all have filters in place to deal with known emotional
response incase of uncomfortable truths.
Whim is a lower level result of survival that must be examined closer,
Personal Feelin...
Journal Entry
Thought
Connectivity 2007-04-24
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How is Math.Rand() Calculated?
Orgnsm report '07/03/22 anoml - v3p6 [link forthcoming, Sorry] note: this is randomly generated through the JavaScript engine. - higher ordered patterns emerge from the "random" number generator's output, - so, is this a pattern from the mechanics of the...
Cosmology
Culture
Journal Entry 2007-03-22
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Dump from 2006-10.txt
i think that no matter how much people think they own and try to own things, it can't happen. it's impossible. ownership is a false concept, in much the same way that the ego is a false concept. no person has the capacity to own anything or anyone. no person has the capacity to be cut off from the system that is our univers...
Cosmology
Journal Entry 2007-01-06
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Map of orgnsm.org in its infancy
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Cosmology
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Screenshot 2006-09-15
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Physical
I am sick, I have a cold. It is stifling my work and personal life. I noticed
now more than before how emotionally unstable it can pull me. The mind and
body are one thing, they're inexorably linked into one piece of flesh. We are
flesh and flesh alone, this cold is more proof of that fact.
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Anatomy 2005-09-12
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Dreamtime
I dreamed that people browsing Google Maps satellite imagery located some
sort of gigantic self-portrait of George W. Bush made out of raised sections
of grass out on his ranch somewhere, G.W. visible from space. Then there was
some kind of TV show playing and Al Gore was on it saying that this prove...
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Dream 2005-09-12
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Freo
Shopping in Fremantle.
Valentino's for
dinner in Northbridge. Went running for miles; out towards
Claremont, past the
Old Swan Brewery,
along the river, till I reached a blue boat house.
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Australia Trip 2003
Travel 2003-12-23
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Snowball
Took Snowie, my Uncle's black dog, to Dog Beach (the only one
around there that allows dogs). Ate tacos at grandmothers house.
Watched The Grinch.
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Australia Trip 2003
Travel 2003-12-22
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Klub
Went to a couple clubs in Northbridge area; namely Rise and Base.
Next day Pete, Marion and Chloe showed up. went to Cott Beach
again, jumped in the water this time, cold shit. Went to a good
indian restaurant with them....
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Australia Trip 2003
Travel 2003-12-21
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Cott
Went to Cottesloe Beach, found some crabs and whatnot. Lifted
weights with my brother. Ate at a decent restaurant on the river.
Mom's been sick so we haven't done much. went shopping downtown
today, didn't buy a fucking thing. can't wait to go down to Northcliffe
later this week....
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Australia Trip 2003
Travel 2003-12-20
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West Aus
So I'm here in Perth. Forgot how beautiful this part of the world
is.. Lost a couple days with flying and crossing over time zones...
Me and my brother Paul went out the first night we got here. Went
to this huge bar near the river and near the University of Western
Australia. The place was packed with hundr...
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Australia Trip 2003
Travel 2003-12-19
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Aus Departure
I am leaving for Australia in a couple of hours. I will be back on the 31st. Contact me through e-mail until then. (Maybe I will start using this as a real journal on my trip, maybe not.)...
Journal Entry
Australia Trip 2003
Travel 2003-12-15