amniöt Experiencer Notebook

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• Shared Experience black and gold machine elves total astral enrapturment contents of my mind exposed and outstretched in 3-space stellar travel flip-book style navigation controller connecting with arboreal squid-gorillas -Anoml/naughtnaut ... Hallucination Friends Toys 83 McAllister St. #112 Journal Entry 2008
• <3 Screenshot Friends Journal Entry 2013
• ( ) Screenshot Journal Entry 2011
• Lily Book Find Books Thought Connectivity Journal Entry Mammal 2013
• Trinitempli O3O experimentation = invocation = divination alchemy = goetia = qabalah SCIENCE = RELIGION = PHILOSOPHY dualism = monism = nihilism 2 = 1 = 0 wisdom = understanding = knowledge 3 = 8 = 1 trances/paths: mechanica/fortune = joy/sorrow = self/less 0 = 3 = 2 Mercury = Sulphur = Salt ... (Type)Wisdom Cosmology Journal Entry 2011
• Basilisk of Light + p.VI if you stay naive you can remain innocent of everything. "the exposure of innocence is a lie" the joy you share with others is also my joy. give me all your attempts to make me sorry. to addict me to sorrow. it is fun to wander into the clouds but carelessness attracts malignant forces and to stay high you walk on our... (Type)Wisdom Friends Journal Entry 2011
• ghostbeetlebloodwater it's my birthday what the fuck do i care about that? so fucking drunk so split-knuckled fucking dumb drunk knuckles against wood let me in i'm alone on the cold concrete of my expensive apartment yet not alone yet so not fucking alone so alone crusting blood trickles knuckles now i want more where did i lea... Hallucination Emotion Friends (Type)Wisdom Journal Entry 2008
• Birthgasm embodying pure emanations of nature biting the white hot blade of love illuminating exit holes in the death-cycle for every action not-taken there exists a concrescing birth-orgasm my mind rejects your dogma like viral-infection the drama is nice but what about that climax? (there's no such thing as too much lubricati... Hallucination Friends Culture (Type)Wisdom Journal Entry 2008
• Balance Winds Oozing Dichotomic Awareness Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to i... Friends Cosmology Yoga Sky Journal Entry 2009
• white journal '10 one nothing -> one source -> one playground... Cosmology Yoga Journal Entry 2010
• The Dissolvement of Thought in the Engagement of the Orgasm of the Moment Englishing will not pervert my feelings. My feelings are made of words. Shouldn't it be: Let the best ideas win? No, because we all have filters in place to deal with known emotional response incase of uncomfortable truths. Whim is a lower level result of survival that must be examined closer, Personal Feelin... Journal Entry Thought Connectivity 2007
• Effort Confusion '09 Cosmology Thought Friends Yoga Journal Entry 2009
• 'Understanding Nebula' Labyrinth Game {connect visually in illustrator} the ego is a "protective" layer/program, leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system. it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self it is a system that is created by feedback from your environment it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an u... Cosmology Journal Entry 2009
• IPShOSh Journal Entry Language (Type)Wisdom 2014
• Binding = Freedom Boundaries bind, the yoke frees.... Thought Journal Entry 2009
• Dump from 2006-10.txt i think that no matter how much people think they own and try to own things, it can't happen. it's impossible. ownership is a false concept, in much the same way that the ego is a false concept. no person has the capacity to own anything or anyone. no person has the capacity to be cut off from the system that is our univers... Cosmology Journal Entry 2007
• Belief what you think is actually really true! what kind of pompous idea is that? that you could possibly possess truth? what APPEARS to be true TO YOU, RIGHT NOW ... Thought Journal Entry 2007
• DESIRE DEMANDS DESIRE DEMANDS THAT I DO NOT DEMAND FOR DEMANDED DESIRE FULFILLMENT IS NOT WHOLISTIC... Emotion Journal Entry 2010
• System Halt Screenshot Journal Entry 2007
• AMF13 Journal still processing this...... the more i reflect the more amazing it feels.... some highlights: the soundsystem camps were so so pleasing to see out in that setting after years of bay area undergrounds... all my acquaintances from that scene were there... the drugs were amazing and i had some of the prettiest and most intens... Autonomous Mutant Festival XIII Friends Hallucination Journal Entry 2009
• Alice (in Wonderland (in 3D)) ... would've been better in psilocybin-vision. Perhaps then the 75% of the audience that did not realize that the dragon was actually a symbol for the inner-demon of illusion called Choronzon and that the entire film was actually a multi-layered metaphorical symbol of incredible subtlety. The film masterfully encourages the... Video Gatherings Journal Entry 2010
• Dreamhaus Dream Screenshot Friends Journal Entry 2013
• Cogito Ergo Sum cogito ergo sum the boundaries that i can *sense* are my controllable boundaries i am, because i can cognize my own existence the ego becomes necessary once more, at the level of interacting with people when you cannot cognize that you are them. I FEEL the boundary, even though it doesn't OBJECTIVELY exist... the o... (Type)Wisdom Friends Journal Entry 2010
• Astral Gateway Skull 1-performing full moon ritual out in the field (which was specifically geared towards contacting the astral body) [2010-03-30@2AM] 2-having partially achieved a wonder-trance (via transmuting a sorrow-trance) which i felt under the spell of when i first saw the skull (so the find was perhaps a direct reward for ach... Foundskull + Vertebrae Journal Entry Emotion 2010
• "i gonna fight ya with my heart and soul" .. and yet the more we fight, the more rights they steal.. does fighting now mean shutting up? this is not a civil rights era, you will not be granted rights in response to direct actions, you will be punished because the majority actually would rather support tyranny over freedom and live in their little comfort cag... Journal Entry Friends 2010
• so ready to watch society burn i will be stoking the cleansing fire nervous they are, those that wish to live without giving. the more they draw guns, the more nervousness they reveal. their sinking financial projections, the controllers/bankers know and they are so so frightened. fear turns to insidious plans. total collapse is now inevitable. Sean Ma... Journal Entry Friends 2010
• True Finding true love and true enjoyment can be pretty detrimental to the human mind... Friends Journal Entry 2010
• starting hir day, rebirth, change fractal cascade watching the labyrinth walls blueprinting metamorphosis along its way i/o balancing.... [the ego *is* a structure: "false" in its pretenses, "evil" in its raw expression and essentially "hollow" as it may be, it contains a "personality", which is a dualing input/output stream of pure lifeforce] ...all t... Harmony Cosmology Journal Entry 2009
• Racial Murders almost no one can properly define what race is without an anthropological degree. racism tends to self-generate. white people killing blacks makes blacks hate whites. makes whites hate whites. makes whites that already hated blacks hate them more for being upset. the linguistic mechanics of "black and white" is a... Friends Journal Entry 2010
• Demiurgic Growth Vat Dumping is that y we've been grown in this vat? bcs a sorrow-enshrouded world(view) creates the best kind of art [when one overcomes it]? we are a steaming pile of creative spark ripe for the dumping back in to the galactic mind stew... Cosmology Journal Entry 2010
• AnUNioN for Σ Journal Entry Diagram Yoga Cosmology 2009
• Find Others honing the netweb glue trap find thee others where be u... Friends Journal Entry 2010
• Statuz trys to unwind culture by passively offering foreign objects up for inspection /// has become the fool on the hill... (Type)Wisdom Journal Entry 2010
• Love and Sunbeams you said i needed love and sunshine you said you'd give it for a moment... Friends Journal Entry 2010
• Disappearance Take 2 no one seems to care about other people's darkness.. so i'm just sealing it off until i trust that someone truly is healing seems pretty much a personal thing, trying to help is like a termite trying to assist a NASA mission... the rejection i feel is not really anyone else's concern i guess i only tried to include oth... Friends Journal Entry 2009
• Transgressions? huh this rando drunk jock type dude @ 1015 said the darndest things.... something about how i'm "too nice" in the face of the harsh and fucked up world and also that i open myself up to all transgressions by being "too beautiful" these are paraphrases.... don't quite know what to make of it... don't reall... Friends Journal Entry 2009
• Numinosity I am within you, and of you. At any slice in time of my existence any number of hyperdimensional situations are taking place, conducted by "the Collective Unconscious", socalled which could mean that the gateway to hyperlight communication must also exist, if one were to be so inclined as to invoke thine brothers and sist... (Type)Wisdom Harmony Yoga Emotion Cosmology Journal Entry 2008
• Dual Reply 2=1=0! :) all aspects reconcilable... boundaries are temporary illusions... the division is for the chance of union and beyond moral judgement... though i do agree it is harmful for this species to continue its blind faith in the dual, i realize it has gotten us where it has... also, i believe that magick can be used a... Yoga Cosmology Journal Entry 2009
• yellow journal '10 only creating internal frictions concerning "one's own" morality of "one's own" actions can be said to be "false will" (as in opposition to the Thelemic idea of True Will) all will is one will above the abyss, likewise, there true and false do not exist Anything in quotes above is a conventionalized lie concerning the nat... Harmony Journal Entry Cosmology 2010
• Depths funny how we think we can see so much of our world with the naked eye - not so! i've come to this approach to life: be excited for death yet focused on life... death in this shell to me seems like the beginning of high adventure... yeah, but you need an ultra elite electron microscope to get those badass shots normal one... (Type)Wisdom Journal Entry 2010

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