1995Aug27

Typical Children 40
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Shared Experience
black and gold machine elves
total astral enrapturment
contents of my mind exposed and outstretched in 3-space
stellar travel flip-book style navigation controller
connecting with arboreal squid-gorillas
-Anoml/naughtnaut
...
Hallucination
Friends
Toys
83 McAllister St. #112
Journal Entry
2008
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<3
Screenshot
Friends
Journal Entry
2013
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( )
Screenshot
Journal Entry
2011
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Lily Book Find
Books
Thought
Connectivity
Journal Entry
Mammal
2013
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Trinitempli O3O
experimentation = invocation = divination
alchemy = goetia = qabalah
SCIENCE = RELIGION = PHILOSOPHY
dualism = monism = nihilism
2 = 1 = 0
wisdom = understanding = knowledge
3 = 8 = 1
trances/paths: mechanica/fortune = joy/sorrow = self/less
0 = 3 = 2
Mercury = Sulphur = Salt
...
(Type)Wisdom
Cosmology
Journal Entry
2011
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Basilisk of Light + p.VI
if you stay naive you can remain innocent of everything.
"the exposure of innocence is a lie"
the joy you share with others is also my joy.
give me all your attempts to make me sorry. to addict me to sorrow.
it is fun to wander into the clouds but carelessness attracts malignant forces and to stay high you walk on our...
(Type)Wisdom
Friends
Journal Entry
2011
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ghostbeetlebloodwater
it's my birthday
what the fuck do i care about that?
so fucking drunk
so split-knuckled
fucking dumb drunk
knuckles against wood
let me in
i'm alone on the cold concrete
of my expensive apartment
yet not alone
yet so not fucking alone
so alone
crusting blood trickles
knuckles
now i want more
where did i lea...
Hallucination
Emotion
Friends
(Type)Wisdom
Journal Entry
2008
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Birthgasm
embodying pure emanations of nature
biting the white hot blade of love
illuminating exit holes in the death-cycle
for every action not-taken there exists a concrescing birth-orgasm
my mind rejects your dogma like viral-infection
the drama is nice but what about that climax?
(there's no such thing as too much lubricati...
Hallucination
Friends
Culture
(Type)Wisdom
Journal Entry
2008
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Balance Winds Oozing Dichotomic Awareness
Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming
Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to i...
Friends
Cosmology
Yoga
Sky
Journal Entry
2009
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white journal '10
one nothing -> one source -> one playground...
Cosmology
Yoga
Journal Entry
2010
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The Dissolvement of Thought in the Engagement of the Orgasm of the Moment
Englishing will not pervert my feelings. My feelings are made of words.
Shouldn't it be: Let the best ideas win?
No, because we all have filters in place to deal with known emotional
response incase of uncomfortable truths.
Whim is a lower level result of survival that must be examined closer,
Personal Feelin...
Journal Entry
Thought
Connectivity
2007
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Effort Confusion '09
Cosmology
Thought
Friends
Yoga
Journal Entry
2009
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'Understanding Nebula' Labyrinth Game
{connect visually in illustrator}
the ego is a "protective" layer/program,
leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system.
it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self
it is a system that is created by feedback from your environment
it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an u...
Cosmology
Journal Entry
2009
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IPShOSh
Journal Entry
Language
(Type)Wisdom
2014
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Binding = Freedom
Boundaries bind, the yoke frees....
Thought
Journal Entry
2009
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Dump from 2006-10.txt
i think that no matter how much people think they own and try to own things, it can't happen. it's impossible. ownership is a false concept, in much the same way that the ego is a false concept. no person has the capacity to own anything or anyone. no person has the capacity to be cut off from the system that is our univers...
Cosmology
Journal Entry
2007
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Belief
what you think is actually really true! what kind of pompous idea is that? that you could possibly possess truth?
what APPEARS to be true TO YOU, RIGHT NOW
...
Thought
Journal Entry
2007
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DESIRE DEMANDS
DESIRE DEMANDS THAT I DO NOT DEMAND
FOR DEMANDED DESIRE FULFILLMENT IS NOT WHOLISTIC...
Emotion
Journal Entry
2010
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System Halt
Screenshot
Journal Entry
2007
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AMF13 Journal
still processing this...... the more i reflect the more amazing it feels.... some highlights:
the soundsystem camps were so so pleasing to see out in that setting after years of bay area undergrounds... all my acquaintances from that scene were there... the drugs were amazing and i had some of the prettiest and most intens...
Autonomous Mutant Festival XIII
Friends
Hallucination
Journal Entry
2009
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Alice (in Wonderland (in 3D))
... would've been better in psilocybin-vision. Perhaps then the 75% of the audience that did not realize that the dragon was actually a symbol for the inner-demon of illusion called Choronzon and that the entire film was actually a multi-layered metaphorical symbol of incredible subtlety. The film masterfully encourages the...
Video
Gatherings
Journal Entry
2010
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Dreamhaus
Dream
Screenshot
Friends
Journal Entry
2013
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Cogito Ergo Sum
cogito ergo sum
the boundaries that i can *sense* are my controllable boundaries
i am, because i can cognize my own existence
the ego becomes necessary once more, at the level of interacting with people
when you cannot cognize that you are them. I FEEL the boundary, even though
it doesn't OBJECTIVELY exist... the o...
(Type)Wisdom
Friends
Journal Entry
2010
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Astral Gateway Skull
1-performing full moon ritual out in the field (which was specifically geared towards contacting the astral body) [2010-03-30@2AM]
2-having partially achieved a wonder-trance (via transmuting a sorrow-trance) which i felt under the spell of when i first saw the skull (so the find was perhaps a direct reward for ach...
Foundskull + Vertebrae
Journal Entry
Emotion
2010
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"i gonna fight ya with my heart and soul"
.. and yet the more we fight, the more rights they steal.. does fighting now mean shutting up?
this is not a civil rights era, you will not be granted rights in response to direct actions, you will be punished because the majority actually would rather support tyranny over freedom and live in their little comfort cag...
Journal Entry
Friends
2010
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so ready to watch society burn
i will be stoking the cleansing fire
nervous they are, those that wish to live without giving. the more they draw guns, the more nervousness they reveal. their sinking financial projections, the controllers/bankers know and they are so so frightened. fear turns to insidious plans. total collapse is now inevitable.
Sean Ma...
Journal Entry
Friends
2010
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True
Finding true love and true enjoyment can be pretty detrimental to the human mind...
Friends
Journal Entry
2010
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starting hir day, rebirth, change fractal cascade
watching the labyrinth walls
blueprinting metamorphosis along its way
i/o balancing....
[the ego *is* a structure:
"false" in its pretenses,
"evil" in its raw expression
and essentially "hollow" as it may be,
it contains a "personality",
which is a dualing input/output stream of pure lifeforce]
...all t...
Harmony
Cosmology
Journal Entry
2009
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Racial Murders
almost no one can properly define what race is without an anthropological degree.
racism tends to self-generate.
white people killing blacks makes blacks hate whites. makes whites hate whites. makes whites that already hated blacks hate them more for being upset.
the linguistic mechanics of "black and white" is a...
Friends
Journal Entry
2010
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Demiurgic Growth Vat Dumping
is that y we've been grown in this vat?
bcs a sorrow-enshrouded world(view) creates the best kind of art [when one overcomes it]?
we are a steaming pile of creative spark ripe for the dumping back in to the galactic mind stew...
Cosmology
Journal Entry
2010
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AnUNioN for Σ
Journal Entry
Diagram
Yoga
Cosmology
2009
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Find Others
honing the netweb glue trap
find thee others
where be u...
Friends
Journal Entry
2010
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Statuz
trys to unwind culture by passively offering foreign objects up for inspection /// has become the fool on the hill...
(Type)Wisdom
Journal Entry
2010
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Love and Sunbeams
you said i needed love
and sunshine
you said you'd give it
for a moment...
Friends
Journal Entry
2010
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Disappearance Take 2
no one seems to care about other people's darkness.. so i'm just sealing it off until i trust that someone truly is
healing seems pretty much a personal thing, trying to help is like a termite trying to assist a NASA mission...
the rejection i feel is not really anyone else's concern
i guess i only tried to include oth...
Friends
Journal Entry
2009
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Transgressions?
huh
this rando drunk jock type dude @ 1015
said the darndest things....
something about how i'm "too nice"
in the face of the harsh and fucked up world
and also that i open myself up to all
transgressions by being "too beautiful"
these are paraphrases....
don't quite know what to make of it...
don't reall...
Friends
Journal Entry
2009
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Numinosity
I am within you, and of you.
At any slice in time of my existence any number of hyperdimensional situations are taking place, conducted by "the Collective Unconscious", socalled
which could mean that the gateway to hyperlight communication must also exist, if one were to be so inclined as to invoke thine brothers and sist...
(Type)Wisdom
Harmony
Yoga
Emotion
Cosmology
Journal Entry
2008
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Dual Reply
2=1=0! :)
all aspects reconcilable...
boundaries are temporary illusions...
the division is for the chance of union and beyond moral judgement...
though i do agree it is harmful for this species to continue its blind faith in the dual, i realize it has gotten us where it has...
also, i believe that magick can be used a...
Yoga
Cosmology
Journal Entry
2009
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yellow journal '10
only creating internal frictions concerning "one's own" morality of "one's own" actions can be said to be "false will" (as in opposition to the Thelemic idea of True Will)
all will is one will above the abyss, likewise, there true and false do not exist
Anything in quotes above is a conventionalized lie concerning the nat...
Harmony
Journal Entry
Cosmology
2010
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Depths
funny how we think we can see so much of our world with the naked eye - not so!
i've come to this approach to life: be excited for death yet focused on life... death in this shell to me seems like the beginning of high adventure...
yeah, but you need an ultra elite electron microscope to get those badass shots
normal one...
(Type)Wisdom
Journal Entry
2010
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