amniöt Experiencer Notebook

<p>
Friday October 9
@ the Bordello -1247 E 12th St, Oakland, CA
</p>

<h4>S.P.A.Z. Soundsystem:</h4>
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d-syn
oshan anand
miss gawker
th mole
rtype
sakana
mc subzero permafrost
tang li weebs
miz rowdy
white rabbit
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<h4>Katabatik Soundsystem:</h4>
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Pink.Noise.
i.i
R.M.S.
Fluorescent Grey
Nada
Pansophia
Grizelda Blanco
Nezzy Idy
Alakazam
Nada
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<p>Freak Fantastique Cabaret featuring</p>
<p>Sanza Asylum,Krista,Donna Wood,Zombie Dan and more...</p>
<p>3 rooms, all night, BYOB, starts at 9, 10$ entry.</p>

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Miz Rowdy 10-11
Oshan Anand 11-12
th' mole and subzero permafrost 12-1
Tang li Weebs 1-1:45
White Rabbit 1:45-2:30
MissGawker 2:30-3:15
D-Syn 3:15-4:15
R-type 4:15-5
Sakana (No.E Sunflowrfish) 5-wheneva

also if you get there earlier than ten I might be playing
and also the address is 1247 East 12th Street/ 13th Avenue
in oakland
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<p>last night: car was stolen, miranda was there trying to help</p>
<p>two nights ago: teleporting snakes in the back of a van, yuri driving</p>

<p>
saturday 8.29.09 9pm - late<br/>
R.M.S. - Prion - DSYN - Pansophia - MNEMOTH - 666gangstaz - Filthmilk - Heartworm - Thee Abominable N.O.-men + others
@ 5lowershop, SF<br/>
7-77 $ entry - a benefit for kata bus crash this june<br/>
no cops<br/>
www.katabatik.org
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<p>
http://www.katabatik.org/images/82909web.jpg
</p>

<pre>mind and body are both mind

the shaman must live at the edge of the village

off the beaten path of <strong>culture</strong>

healing the sick

through lifeforce connect

informational downloads

through psychotropic ingestion

locks and keys appear</pre>

<pre>
Saturday, August 22 - West Oakland, Ca

Teen Suicide Records chops, screws and scrambles up the freshest beats for you. The mash will include a smattering of hard techno, a side of breakcore, all spiced up with dub and acid. Yummy!

Jamie Ball (Third Movement, Turning Point - Scotland): Scottish maniac Jamie Ball has been putting out techno on his label Turning Point since 1999. He has made guest appearances on Si Begg's Novamute label and his latest record was released on Rotterdam's legendary Third Movement label. Expect the hardest, most booty, acidic techno possible.

Sickboy (Breakcore Gives Me Wood, Tigerbeat6 - Belgium) Sickboy has made a big splash on the breakcore scene since his first record in 2002. He and fellow Belgian Droon have thrown some of the biggest breakcore parties in Europe with their Breakcore Gives Me Wood parties and are credited with popularizing the genre in the EU. Besides his promoting activites, Sickboy makes some of the sickest cut up breakcore, dubstep and jungle around. He has releases on Peace Off, Tigerbeat 6, death$ucker and Ad Nosieum.

Droon (Breakcore Gives Me Wood-Belgium): Known for his infamous Cripplefight remix, Droon has been making breakcore, speedbass, cutup madness with his buddy Sickboy for the last decade. His live show is off the hook and known for blowing minds.

Belladonnakillz (Drosstik - Canada) If the notion of some ADD-prone kids squirting LCD into their ears whilst scoffing a bowl of sugar on a gabba merry-go-round gets you intrigued, then may we cordially introduce you to Belladonnakillz. Having already graced vinyl with the likes of Duran Duran Duran, Knifehandchop and Rotator, the one-man digital imp Belladonnakillz will be gracing the bay area with his mashed up synth pop gabber nuttiness.

Plus we have a bunch of locals faves:

Eustachian (Fathme - Ca) - live - Mathematical speedcore/grindcore chaos
Exillon (Zod, Ad Noiseum - Oakland) - live - Beautiful acidic soundscapes into half step bass madness
666Gangstaz vs rtype (Teen Suicide Records - San Francisco, Oakland) - live - demented hardcore techno glitched together with electro, dub and whatever else gets the crowd moving.
Jack Clang (Havoc Sound - San Lorenzo) The sound that makes crowd move their feet.
Sour (Havoc Sound - Hayward) - live -tough as nails hoover naughtiness

BASS PROVIDED BY HAVOC SOUNDSYSTEM

$12. All night starting at 10 PM! Check www.teeensuiciderecords.com or call (415) 762-3616 on the date of the party for information and directions. Location will be known to a few and discovered by many but it is legendary. DO NOT MISS!
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<pre>
Saturday, july 25 10pm or, a little half more than half way through the day out of time....

PSykovsky Live- from RUSSIA !!! Tantrumm records new york.speacial 3.5 hour set.

Quasar -www.quasartrance.com sf to see quasar in action

Dj OLOWANPI-www.dropoutproductions.com sf to see olowanpi in action

Freakazoid- aka Freaks Of nature www.echovortex.com pdx to see Freakazoid in action

Parus- Live www.Auraquake records.com sf to see Parus in action

Secret Society- www.Quantumfrog.com pdx to see the secrets of the society

Micheal mcateer's LSD Problem child and wonder drug will be available for $20 for your purchasing power.

A chai shop will be provided Deco by PsyLotus and Olowanpi Visuals by EgNogRa and Space Turtle EAW sound by P!arus

Address: 1472 oddstad drive redwood city...

Update 7/22/09:

Other featured psy-artists:

Parus
Quasar
DJ Olowampi
more TBA
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<pre>
Come all freaks in the midst of a beautiful vision. We invite you to a night of and day of music with PSYKOVSKY and friends,

@The wharehouse ! JUly 25 th sf, california

PSYKOVSKY LIVE> 4 hour set- tantrum records
FRACTAL COWBOYS-- alpha centuria
PARUS - LIVE- auraquake records
SECRET SOCIETY -DJ set - quantum froq
Freakazoid- Dj Set - echo-vortex

Then Happy camp In the park on sunday with special guests !!!

Viewing of "LSD : Problem Child or Wonder Drug", a documentary by Michael McAteer. we will be selling copies of the dvd at the event.
-Psychedelic / global market place

9 pm-8 am full bar / with Id

address posted week of party.

PRESALE Ticket are 30 $ via pay pal. to this account " travainholland@yahoo.com "

Thanks for your support and we will most definitely see you on the trancefloor!!!

http://nw-psy.com/portal/index.php?topic=737.0
http://quasartrance.com/psykovsky/
http://www.last.fm/event/1155875
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=114034174296
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<p>
moving through an aqua channel [not really a river - maybe 30ft across].
come upon an edge ending at an immense waterfall [maybe 10-15 second freefall to the bottom].
group of us are there with some sort of instructor. lizzy is there, speaking about the jump-to-come and the backpak with our already-thrashed food.
</p>
<p>
my heart is throbbing with anticipation [fear of extremely-far freefalls into water is a very common element in my dreams].
most of the group goes over, waiting and watching becomes a difficult endeavor.
i am the last in our group besides the instructor to go, another group gathers behind me.
i have a strong drive to continue and meditate through the fear.
i partially wake-up here as the jump seems to be too intense to stay conscious of the astral sphere.
my heart is about to explode from my chest.
but i have the sensation of making it: headfirst on the way down like a diving hawk and then a quick switch to feet-down as gravity plunges me into the deep pool at the bottom.
</p>
<p>
upon arriving there it seems like it's a portal and i find myself inside an indoor pool with the group all there lined-up and cheering as i walk down their line of chairs to take a seat at the end of the room. joy and a sense of accomplishment flooded my being.
</p>
<p>
the instructor commands us to then battle!
we are loosely broken off into previously-structured groups.
myself and another male seem to be fairly upset about being made to fight eachother, so we decide to make a quick and painless job of defeating everyone else!
we begin with a brawl in the pool with a group near us.
after that we see a group that has taken to resting in sarcophagi propped along the side of the pool.
we throw all the coffins into the pool and attack the people as they try to come out!
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<p>
after this i am heading towards a door in the back of the room, overwhelmed by an attacking i group, i finally make my way out.
the door seems to be another portal as i find myself back in the domain of the aqua channel.
this time i see the beginning of the channel which is covered in playground-type climbing equipment.
i find a magical bird who i somehow get to lend me the power of flight.
i buzz around this territory like a hummingbird, alongside the other bird, zipping through the wood and metal structures over the water.
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<p>
after a while of this joyful activity, i come across a group that was fearful enough to leave the indoor pool and hang out near the water outdoors.
they take-on a cruel poise and seem to gang-up on me.
they injure the bird but i am able to keep it in my hands.
i fight with them as we arrive near the waterfall again.
my skill seems to be enough to keep them at bay.
as i jump over the edge, i extend my arms holding out the wounded bird in an attempt to coax it into flying away into the air.
it attempts to flutter and twitch but cannot take flight, grief overwhelms me in midair as i realize the bird will die at the bottom of the waterfall.
i then turn and scream at the group of cowards challenging them to a final battle at a later time and location.
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<pre>2=1=0! :)
all aspects reconcilable...
boundaries are temporary illusions...
the division is for the chance of union and beyond moral judgement...
though i do agree it is harmful for this species to continue its blind faith in the dual, i realize it has gotten us where it has...
also, i believe that magick can be used as a tool of nondual training since it seems to me to be simply yoga in reverse ["conquering god" on the flip side of "dissolving into god"... the two directions can be balanced in a harmony]</pre>

<pre>still processing this...... the more i reflect the more amazing it feels.... some highlights:</pre>
<p>the soundsystem camps were so so pleasing to see out in that setting after years of bay area undergrounds... all my acquaintances from that scene were there... the drugs were amazing and i had some of the prettiest and most intense visions ever.... m3sc4line [first time], 5hr00ms, L25, 2-Ci and K were all in my system by the end of the weekend!... the presence of "the other" was at times so overwhelming at one point i literally thought the campgrounds had shifted and left this planet.... had a run-in with an attendee that ended in a tragic event after i left (there's a big long story i have to tell about this but face-to-face seems best).... the only really negative things i have to say are that the folks could've been a bit more inviting and the parties a bit more engaging (too much of the time i'd be the only person in front of a soundsystem dancing).... oh and much much better selection of music than burningman could ever supply! (dubstep, jungle, breakcore, hardcore, tekno, blackmetal, darkambient and of course "experimental" were all represented strongly).... basically, i think you all would've enjoyed it!</p>

<p>i saw heaven, i overcame the possibility of hell, i cried and i writhed in the dirt with ecstatic joy.....</p>
<!--p>def. intense for me too... was not expecting those things to happen... felt very very drawn to you (which is not a new thing) and was having some thoughts/visions that drove me to open to you in that way. after i saw you at katabatik when fauna was playing, i prayed that i would get to hang out with you alone that night.</p-->
<!--p>i feel like i've started to develop crush-type feelings for you again for a while now tho... kataoasis.... TG..... etc... i can't help it when i see you.</p-->
<!--p>[ i had the thought that it would get too intense going to gemini w/you and that i would want to hang out with you there and that it may have been the wrong time for it... but that was only after you asked me to go... before then i had decided not to and i was halfway into a mushroom trip when you offered a ride. ]</p-->
<!--p>the deep pain i've felt and the aggressive manner in which i pushed you away is, to me, simply a sign that i was/am still very interested in you.</p-->
<!--p>i do love you back... even when we are not romantically engaged or if there is some pain in me that wins at controlling... the love is unconditional.</p-->
<!--p>was wondering when you get back... already missing you. we had to leave shortly after i left your tent. was fucking hard to go... staying the rest of the time was all i could think that i wanted. yuri was unyielding to my attempts at staying...</p-->
<!--p>ended up bawling my eyes out right before we left, but not really over leaving, mostly i just FELT so fucking much... my time with you was bliss (both nights), and made all the effort to go worth it for me. not much privacy out there, so people were worried about me, but little of the tears were coming from sadness... bottled feelings pouring out, older knots unraveling, forgiving myself... i said that the crying means i'm doing really well.</p-->
<!--p>want you to know that my intention is to maintain a level of health necessary to be near you... i love you deeply, theorna.</p-->
<!--p>yeah, i had a lot of hard moments there, was not all cool.... much of this had to do with the crustpunk/scumfuck groups that were in attendance... i had to hear men make obscene remarks towards women, overhear that some guy had badly beaten up a woman, etc, i even had to watch a guy die (but that is a longer story).... along with this was a fairly noticeable prejudice towards how i looked, more specifically: that i was not dirty or crusty or had not enough patches on my clothes to fit in with the area we were camped at. i played one trance song out of my car and someone told me to "shut it off because this area of mutantfest doesn't like techno".... the people at the festival seemed intensely dualistically divided... between those interested in aesthetics and those against interest in aesthetics.... thankfully i found enough of the former (acquaintances from underground parties over the years) to stay positive during my time there.... the chemicals and music helped as well :)</p-->
<!--p>i'm not so sure you missed a lot because you were up there early in the week... we saw all of friday and saturday night and it was pretty dead both nights... i wonder when the really happening time to be there is? it was much more fun than burningman has ever been for me... i knew a lot of people there and the aesthetics were much more pleasing and engaging to me, even if it wasn't all that lively most of the time.</p-->

<pre>watching the labyrinth walls

blueprinting metamorphosis along its way

i/o balancing....

[the ego *is* a structure:
"false" in its pretenses,
"evil" in its raw expression
and essentially "hollow" as it may be,
it contains a "personality",
which is a dualing input/output stream of pure lifeforce]

...all the while viewing this apparent dual as illusory,
a cultural artifact...

pure lifeforce flow!

true will
or the guardian angel
represents
the most proper
egoic veil i/o
or lifeforce dynamic
for the individual in question
obtained through surrender
of the personality

yogic fine tuning (apparent control - Yama)
magickal will projection (apparent control - Invocation)
but with zero control</pre>

<div class="caption">1. haunted meadow</div>
<div class="caption">2. amber+haunted meadow</div>
<div class="caption">3. crushed vw</div>