amniöt Experiencer Notebook

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All of the most ecstatic, elated, jubilant, exciting, delicious, rewarding moments of my life are so great and so appreciated, there are no complaints here. And yet they are just as important, just as deep, just as potentially fulfilling as *this present moment*.<br/>
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There is no better place or time or entity to be than here and now and thee.<br/>
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No one *out there* (in this vast world) is in a better position than you now stand.<br/>
No one *out there* is better privileged or has an easier shot at honest Success than you now do.<br/>
No one *out there* is having a more important or special or unique experience than yours is now.<br/>
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Sit on the ground.<br/>
Feel the charge from this Earth move up your spine.<br/>
Look at the sky.<br/>
Feel the charge from the Heavens move down your spine.<br/>
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Raise yourself up (in loving devotion) to yourself.<br/>
To your experience.<br/>
It is truly divine. It is truly unique. It is truly yours.<br/>
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Watch a snail glide. Watch a blade of grass quiver. Watch raindrops drop.<br/>
Watch the most grand to the most minute of details.<br/>
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Be in it. You are it. Let the Joy of this Union fill your Heart.<br/>
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Elsewhere and elsewhen are fantasies you know little about.<br/>
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You are here. You are pure. You are perfect in your Self.<br/>
You are the Angel of your Life.<br/>
You are the absolute Creator of your World.<br/>
You have chosen your experiences.<br/>
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No one has forced you.<br/>
We are not ants to a hateful lord<br/>
or pawns on a cosmic board.<br/>
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If freewill was not truly free there would be no point to any of this choosing.<br/>
This allowance of the experience of choice is what is guiding our Evolution.<br/>
Without a point there is no reason for the crafting of this immensely beautiful Universe, this ecstatic Movement, this charging Energy.<br/>
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Do you really wish to believe we are victims?<br/>
That we are doomed to fail?<br/>
That we are being tricked?<br/>
What good will this bring?<br/>
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Relax.<br/>
Breathe deep.<br/>
Breathe in Heaven. Breathe out Earth.<br/>
Breathe in the Father. Breathe out the Mother.<br/>
You are the Child. You are a Star. You are a brilliant Sun. You are a Genius.<br/>
You are beautiful. You are beloved.<br/>
Bring your self forward. Bring your chord to our Harmony.<br/>
Sing your lovesong.<br/>
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You are wanted. You are loved.<br/>
We want you. We want all of you. We want your style.<br/>
We want your beauty. We want your grace. We want your love.<br/>
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There is no one that can bring the gifts you can.<br/>
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Please keep giving. Please keep living. Please keep thriving.<br/>
Please keep choosing. Please keep connecting. Please keep evolving.<br/>
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Together.
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<p>i want very much to connect more with you, my friends. i have been so overwhelmed and confused so easily in this life. i am neither silently judging you nor wanting to hide. i realize the danger and shallowness of both harsh criticism and overly excessive tenderness. i am trying to sort through how i really think and feel comprehensively. the slightest word or gesture can evoke a million different things on ten different planes. so many paths to tread and only one is perfect. true that the perfect one is always the one you choose. true that the heart is always in control no matter how far astray i may feel. i want to feel that apprehension of flawlessness all the time and especially with all of you. i wish to be sporadic, exciting and at the same time truly authentic, honest. i want to play and have fun deeply from the heart. i do love you, accept you and wish to commune. and what’s more, for my close ones: i truly like you! the depth of my unique self is close only to some particular uniquenesses. i am not trying to get anything from you. i do not need you (to need me) to fuel me. i am here to help if anything. i want to succeed and if i am to fulfill my purpose it is to aid in your success. i can only show you the hallway. i can not even show you which door is your door nor what name is inscribed upon it. only you can find that out and only you can walk through it. i am here to encourage and ask what is possible and what is wanted. i am here to enjoy with you before and after you’ve found your unique and holy name. my beautiful tribe of angels, i adore you.</p>