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  • Brutal Sound Effects Festival 58 with 5lowershop

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    G3 Lounge (3910 Geary), SF, CA

  • AnUNioN for Σ

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    Yoga
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    Cosmology
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  • Katabatik Metacommunications Platform + Record Label Records @The Compound, SF

    <p>
    Friday, April 24th<br/>
    Record.Label.Records and Katabatik present:<br/>
    live multi-channel electronic musick with:
    </p>

    <ul>
    <li>
    POLAR<br/>
    http://www.katabatik.org/POLAR
    </li>
    <li>
    Nommo Ogo<br/>
    http://www.nommoogo.org
    </li>
    <li>
    Fluorescent Grey<br/>
    http://www.myspace.com/fgrey
    </li>
    <li>
    NADA<br/>
    http://www.katabatik.org/nada
    </li>
    </ul>

    <p>
    A CD release part for Nommo Ogo 'Across Time and Space'<br/>
    Refreshments provided by Aphotic Ales<br/>
    At the RML Compound, SF<br/>
    visit http://www.katabatik.org/compound<br/>
    for location info.<br/>
    starts at 9pm, doors open at 8:30<br/>
    8$
    </p>

    <p>
    Flyer here : http://www.katabatik.org/images/comp24th.jpg
    </p>
    <p>
    <a href="http://katabatik.org/compound" rel="external">Compound Information</a>
    </p>

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  • Throbbing Gristle Afterparty

    <p>
    Thursday, April 23rd<br/>
    Katabatik Metacommunications presents<br/>
    A Throbbing Gristle Afterparty... <br/>
    ~11pm - 2am<br/>
    Djs: D-SYN, pink.noise., R.M.S.<br/>
    at the space gallery<br/>
    1141 Polk St<br/>
    San Francisco<br/>
    Free<br/>
    <a href="http://www.spacegallerysf.com">http://www.spacegallerysf.com</a>
    </p>

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    Space Gallery, SF

  • TG Show (during)

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  • Throbbing Gristle Live

    <div>THURSDAY 23rd APRIL - SAN FRANCISCO</div>
    <p>TG will play one 75 minute set of various material from throughout their history.</p>

    <div>THIS SHOW IS SOLD OUT!</div>
    <div>Special 'TG USA 2009' merchandising will be on sale, including: all new TG CD album, TG T-shirt specific to this event, TG Tour Enamel Badge, TG Tour Embroidered Patch.</div>

    <div>
    Admission: $30<br/>
    Doors: TBC<br/>
    Promoters: Goldenvoice<br/>
    www.regencycentersf.com<br/>
    Support : Erika M Anderson
    </div>

    <a href="http://blasthaus.com" rel="external">Tickets</a>

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    Grand Regency Ballroom: 1290 Sutter St, San Francisco, CA 94109

  • 'Understanding Nebula' Labyrinth Game

    <pre>
    {connect visually in illustrator}

    the ego is a <!--social--> "protective" layer/program,
    leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system.
    it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self
    it is a system that is created by <!--social--> feedback from your environment
    it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an unknowable assumption
    about how others perceive thee.
    ego underhandedly tries to control
    other incarnated beings
    to "make" them do things
    to bolster that ego
    back into safety-mode
    when it is alarmed by
    possibilities of death
    or pain caused by insecurity/dis-integration/un-acceptance,
    naught else.
    ego tries to cling to feelings,
    that is what feeds it,
    by negatively cycling the feeling
    until a breaking point is reached
    and the voyager lashes-out
    thereby sending violent disruption
    into social environ and connected beings.
    it is therefor irrelevant to spirit-ape
    for the spirit-ape desires peace
    and freedom to operate closest
    to its true will, that is:
    with a minimum of internal friction.
    the desires of spirit (emotion)
    transcend the concerns of
    the physical plane of reality.

    though "controlling" environment
    is part of the greater self-illusion
    and not necessarily egoic
    (ego is a sub-program of "self"
    that attempts to save that self
    from social "depravity").

    though all control is illusion,
    hallucinated-self
    has ability to "manipulate"
    under compassion-mode,
    but is not always the case...
    awareness of acceptance choice
    can de-power voyager control-reaction.

    ego can never know compassion
    therefor increasing awareness of its methods
    is all we can do.
    cannot force compassion upon it -
    that only bolsters it more
    as it basks in the attention.

    ===============EDIT BELOW=============

    Actions only make attainment <strong>more possible</strong>,
    they cannot attain on their own.
    Honest surrender is a <strong>state</strong>
    not an <strong>action</strong>.
    Thou wilt attain at the time proper
    for thine own nature.
    Which means without
    <strong>neurosis of divisions</strong>,
    without resisting
    The One True Way.

    Awareness is tool of true will.
    Pushing the self to "accept" is the most subversive kind of control!

    Awareness limited by coincidence control center=spiritcore.
    achievement: illusory, pride: egoic emanation.
    true will is placenta connecting goddess to entity...

    the fluidic connectivity
    of the lashing Basilisk,
    up and down
    it moves its head
    in response to
    Her Writhing Love Dance
    to drink from Her Arched Body
    to take tiny tastes
    of succinct succulent subtle sublimity,
    all-ways to Her.

    i am the serpent:
    exemplifying intensity
    in both directions,
    wearing and concealing
    emotion,
    streamlining and breaking-down
    antiquated machinery.

    ========================================

    figured out what to say to someone when they say "i'm sorry"
    if you'd like to be obtuse and express your own feelings: "i'm not"

    truer (non-egoic) "i" doesn't necessarily need or want to be controlled by sorrow
    truest "i" not controlled by sorrow in any case
    self-illusion emanates sorrow
    egoic veil lashes-out in fear from that sorrowful feeling
    attempting to socially control others into strengthening itself

    ego degrades as well as cherishes itself
    to induce dualed-perpetuation of itself
    for primate-derived control over social environment
    current socio-cultural environment creates and enforces egoic worldview
    due to lack of awareness due to fear of pain which emanates from ego control center

    peek-a-boo, bestfriend, i see you!
    ego not enemy
    ego attempts to protect primate
    voyager seeing it as such was egos control plan all along
    (the voyager's un-plan includes all plans of ego)

    playing with illusion of "effort" on part of the felt-self only enforces it
    seeing intentionality split perpetuates more splitting
    true surrender is a state not a method
    awareness not action but two-way connection to spiritcore
    only love can take the ego

    ego trying to protect the primate
    we don't need it anymore
    we must not evilify it

    will of the all
    emanates love-bonding capability.

    egoic and later self veil falls
    if and when
    it is your One True Will
    to lose them.

    Will descends as the self rises up towards loving connection.
    complete connection of these means Ecstasy of Obliteration
    burning away irrelevant and antiquated habits of ego control center

    eye desire more cosmological awareness....

    "love under will" means Love as the capability platform
    and Will as the dynamic aspect of that platform - the going.

    dualed system necessary to create copies of spiritcore
    and view ascendence patterns of them as emergent creative light
    ego not enemy but possibility of novelty
    infinite singularity/infinite space=1 and 0=duality platform=hadit/nuit playground
    1=0
    2 (multiplicity) only exists within ego construct within voyager
    2=0, 2=1
    when personal will is purified by love - true will flows like fountain
    the self-construct may then emanate purer light and move toward complete integration w/spiritcore=death=life, amen
    consciousness a holographic copy of godhead with limiting programs called ego
    it is the ultimate conundrum
    cosmic giggle
    it is a game
    voyager never and always wins
    alchemical philosophers stone
    magnum opus is a catch 22

    Does attention and affection between people always perpetuate ego?
    not necessarily, intimate connection can be had without playing off pain-fear of voyagers in question, pleasure still available without attachments.

    Difference between illusion of perceived-self and egoic programming...
    ego seeks to manipulate for its illusion of self-benefit.
    ego seeks to take RESPONSIBILITY for actions which are in actuality pure expressions of the totality of nature, NOT itself.
    perceived self (the experiencer) does not do this, it just is, it is unified and blames naught.
    </pre>

    <div class="attribution">Credit to J.C. Gold for the "Labyrinth Games" idea. His listing of them in the appendix of American Book of the Dead is both humorous and frightening, my favorite example:</div>
    <div class="quote">#34. window created, scary shapes appear at window game</div>

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  • Balance Winds Oozing Dichotomic Awareness

    <div class="subtitle">Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming</div>
    <p>
    Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to its ecstasy. it means a shedding of illusory constructs, realizing true blends 100% into false. these and other constructs make us who we are currently. the infinite possibility of existence, fluctuating compliments, all beautiful as all be.
    </p>
    <p>
    Process: as the past (which can never again be experienced) drives the experiencer to cling to things like antiquated tendencies of the lower-dimensional realities, the searing radiation of truth burns inward from the future. almost too painful to bare, as freedom overwhelms the loveplay-weary voyager: i ask if this is 'the moment we've all been waiting for' - shivering, sobbing in the cold wind - replies: yeahhssss.
    </p>
    <p>
    Surrender: so, expose my pride, dance on my resistance, soak my necessity in warm spit, dissect my competitiveness survival-program, gain insight on my control-based dis-ease. to achieve ease? achieve not - end the pain, or do not. cannot push surrender to manipulate an end, the surrendering means you accept any end. i can become aware (of its manipulative nature), i can choose (to not cave to its pressures), i can balance (the courage with the fear, the joy with the pain).
    </p>
    <p>
    Question: is not, what things you know that are true or false but, how much truth can you <em>stand</em> (before there is nothing recognizable as you left)? can you go all the way? make that hallucinated-sacrifice? the universe watches until you do and you've already decided, haven't you?
    </p>

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  • Katabatik @Oasis, Oakland

    <div>Thursday , April 16th</div>
    <div>Katabatik MetaCommunications Platform presents</div>
    <h4>livesessions from:</h4>

    <div>
    <a href="http://www.myspace.com/mnemoth" rel="external"><strong>MNEMOTH</strong></a> - hard, sick minimal electro + live vocoder abuse
    </div>

    <div>
    <a href="http://www.myspace.com/fgrey" rel="external"><strong>Fluorescent Grey</strong></a> - psychedelic beats with 80's EBM flavour
    </div>

    +

    <div>
    Djs R.M.S. , .Pink.Noise, Eyebrane, Djynnx
    <br/>
    selecting the finest slimewave, battle ambient, abandoned house, death trance, and OTHER...
    </div>

    <div>
    Starts at 9<br/>
    3$ donation<br/>
    (Free if covered in Black Slime)
    </div>

    <div class="quote">...entertainment beyond comprehension...</div>

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    Ambient
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    IDM
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    The Oasis: 135 12th St, Downtown Oakland

  • Effort Confusion '09

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192 {connect visually in illustrator} the ego is a "protective" layer/program, leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system. it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self it is a system that is created by feedback from your environment it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an unknowable assumption about how others perceive thee. ego underhandedly tries to control other incarnated beings to "make" them do things to bolster that ego back into safety-mode when it is alarmed by possibilities of deat 'Understanding Nebula' Labyrinth Game
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180 Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to its ecstasy. it means a shedding of illusory constructs, realizing true blends 100% into false. these and other constructs make us who we are currently. the infinite possibility of existence, fluctuating compliments, all beautiful Balance Winds Oozing Dichotomic Awareness
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 AnUNioN for Σ
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 Katabatik Metacommunications Platform + Record Label Records @The Compound, SF
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 Throbbing Gristle Afterparty
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 TG Show (during)
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 Throbbing Gristle Live
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 'Understanding Nebula' Labyrinth Game
 http://amniot.orgnsm.org/node/192
 
{connect visually in illustrator}

the ego is a  "protective" layer/program,
leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system.
it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self
it is a system that is created by  feedback from your environment
it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an unknowable assumption
about how others perceive thee.
ego underhandedly tries to control
other incarnated beings
to "make" them do things
to bolster that ego
back into safety-mode
when it is alarmed by
possibilities of death
or pain caused by insecurity/dis-integration/un-acceptance,
naught else.
ego tries to cling to feelings,
that is what feeds it,
by negatively cycling the feeling
until a breaking point is reached
and the voyager lashes-out
thereby sending violent disruption
into social environ and connected beings.
it is therefor irrelevant to spirit-ape
for the spirit-ape desires peace
and freedom to operate closest
to its true will, that is:
with a minimum of internal friction.
the desires of spirit (emotion)
transcend the concerns of
the physical plane of reality.

though "controlling" environment
is part of the greater self-illusion
and not necessarily egoic
(ego is a sub-program of "self"
that attempts to save that self
from social "depravity").

though all control is illusion,
hallucinated-self
has ability to "manipulate"
under compassion-mode,
but is not always the case...
awareness of acceptance choice
can de-power voyager control-reaction.

ego can never know compassion
therefor increasing awareness of its methods
is all we can do.
cannot force compassion upon it -
that only bolsters it more
as it basks in the attention.

===============EDIT BELOW=============


Actions only make attainment more possible,
they cannot attain on their own.
Honest surrender is a state
not an action.
Thou wilt attain at the time proper
for thine own nature.
Which means without
neurosis of divisions,
without resisting
The One True Way.

Awareness is tool of true will.
Pushing the self to "accept" is the most subversive kind of control!

Awareness limited by coincidence control center=spiritcore.
achievement: illusory, pride: egoic emanation.
true will is placenta connecting goddess to entity...

the fluidic connectivity
of the lashing Basilisk,
up and down
it moves its head
in response to
Her Writhing Love Dance
to drink from Her Arched Body
to take tiny tastes
of succinct succulent subtle sublimity,
all-ways to Her.

i am the serpent:
exemplifying intensity
in both directions,
wearing and concealing
emotion,
streamlining and breaking-down
antiquated machinery.

========================================

figured out what to say to someone when they say "i'm sorry"
if you'd like to be obtuse and express your own feelings: "i'm not"

truer (non-egoic) "i" doesn't necessarily need or want to be controlled by sorrow
truest "i" not controlled by sorrow in any case
self-illusion emanates sorrow
egoic veil lashes-out in fear from that sorrowful feeling
attempting to socially control others into strengthening itself

ego degrades as well as cherishes itself
to induce dualed-perpetuation of itself
for primate-derived control over social environment
current socio-cultural environment creates and enforces egoic worldview
due to lack of awareness due to fear of pain which emanates from ego control center

peek-a-boo, bestfriend, i see you!
ego not enemy
ego attempts to protect primate
voyager seeing it as such was egos control plan all along
(the voyager's un-plan includes all plans of ego)

playing with illusion of "effort" on part of the felt-self only enforces it
seeing intentionality split perpetuates more splitting
true surrender is a state not a method
awareness not action but two-way connection to spiritcore
only love can take the ego

ego trying to protect the primate
we don't need it anymore
we must not evilify it

will of the all
emanates love-bonding capability.

egoic and later self veil falls
if and when
it is your One True Will
to lose them.

Will descends as the self rises up towards loving connection.
complete connection of these means Ecstasy of Obliteration
burning away irrelevant and antiquated habits of ego control center


eye desire more cosmological awareness....

"love under will" means Love as the capability platform
and Will as the dynamic aspect of that platform - the going.

dualed system necessary to create copies of spiritcore
and view ascendence patterns of them as emergent creative light
ego not enemy but possibility of novelty
infinite singularity/infinite space=1 and 0=duality platform=hadit/nuit playground
1=0
2 (multiplicity) only exists within ego construct within voyager
2=0, 2=1
when personal will is purified by love - true will flows like fountain
the self-construct may then emanate purer light and move toward complete integration w/spiritcore=death=life, amen
consciousness a holographic copy of godhead with limiting programs called ego
it is the ultimate conundrum
cosmic giggle
it is a game
voyager never and always wins
alchemical philosophers stone
magnum opus is a catch 22

Does attention and affection between people always perpetuate ego?
not necessarily, intimate connection can be had without playing off pain-fear of voyagers in question, pleasure still available without attachments.

Difference between illusion of perceived-self and egoic programming...
ego seeks to manipulate for its illusion of self-benefit.
ego seeks to take RESPONSIBILITY for actions which are in actuality pure expressions of the totality of nature, NOT itself.
perceived self (the experiencer) does not do this, it just is, it is unified and blames naught.
Credit to J.C. Gold for the "Labyrinth Games" idea. His listing of them in the appendix of American Book of the Dead is both humorous and frightening, my favorite example:
#34. window created, scary shapes appear at window game
]]> 192 Tue, 21 Apr 2009 02:29:34 -1000 Balance Winds Oozing Dichotomic Awareness http://amniot.orgnsm.org/node/180 Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming

Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to its ecstasy. it means a shedding of illusory constructs, realizing true blends 100% into false. these and other constructs make us who we are currently. the infinite possibility of existence, fluctuating compliments, all beautiful as all be.

Process: as the past (which can never again be experienced) drives the experiencer to cling to things like antiquated tendencies of the lower-dimensional realities, the searing radiation of truth burns inward from the future. almost too painful to bare, as freedom overwhelms the loveplay-weary voyager: i ask if this is 'the moment we've all been waiting for' - shivering, sobbing in the cold wind - replies: yeahhssss.

Surrender: so, expose my pride, dance on my resistance, soak my necessity in warm spit, dissect my competitiveness survival-program, gain insight on my control-based dis-ease. to achieve ease? achieve not - end the pain, or do not. cannot push surrender to manipulate an end, the surrendering means you accept any end. i can become aware (of its manipulative nature), i can choose (to not cave to its pressures), i can balance (the courage with the fear, the joy with the pain).

Question: is not, what things you know that are true or false but, how much truth can you stand (before there is nothing recognizable as you left)? can you go all the way? make that hallucinated-sacrifice? the universe watches until you do and you've already decided, haven't you?

]]> 180 Fri, 17 Apr 2009 20:51:58 -1000 Katabatik @Oasis, Oakland http://amniot.orgnsm.org/node/542 ]]> 542 Thu, 16 Apr 2009 18:00:00 -1000 http://amniot.orgnsm.org/sites/amniot.orgnsm.org/files/styles/large-landscape-or-portrait/public/2009-04-16_kataosis.jpeg?itok=ud5sopol Effort Confusion '09 http://amniot.orgnsm.org/node/190 ]]> 190 Thu, 16 Apr 2009 09:14:47 -1000 http://amniot.orgnsm.org/sites/amniot.orgnsm.org/files/styles/large-landscape-or-portrait/public/2009-04-15_effort.png?itok=Nj8jrMWu

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