Cinema
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if you stay naive you can remain innocent of everything. "the exposure of innocence is a lie" the joy you share with others is also my joy. give me all your attempts to make me sorry. to addict me to sorrow. it is fun to wander into the clouds but carelessness attracts malignant forces and to stay high you walk on our backs. i'm either really ignorant about knowing what i want or really persistent about getting what i want ... Journal Entry Basilisk of Light + p.VI (Type)Wisdom Friends
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i do love you: the precious few who still support me in the dark hours* of my Metamorphosis. when my skin is tender with the remnants of broken sentiments and i strike-out** at thy delicate touch. i realize this process hurts us both. also do i love all of Mankind and its putrid over-emphasis on mundaneness***, for it understandeth not its circumstance (yet). the thick-headed throngs grow thicker and the Masters must rise ever further**** to meet the challenges. then also do i love the Masters who teach: there is no Work worth doing but the betterment of the Life around you (and everywhere). all creatures possess divine gnosis and come from that same source, so then do i love all fellow creature (on and off world). yes i go all the way this way: away from my own mundaneness, my ugly cyst/chance for growth called: lack of intimacy. all the way to my truer Self who needeth not feedback to exist. there is yet a Self beyond this, which is Not at All, which is both Self and Selfless.***** stability necessitates dynamics, laws are there so the change engine can operate. you are that engine, you a... Journal Entry Masters, Mankind, Metamorphosis (Type)Wisdom Thought Friends
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experimentation = invocation = divination alchemy = goetia = qabalah SCIENCE = RELIGION = PHILOSOPHY dualism = monism = nihilism 2 = 1 = 0 wisdom = understanding = knowledge 3 = 8 = 1 trances/paths: mechanica/fortune = joy/sorrow = self/less 0 = 3 = 2 Mercury = Sulphur = Salt ... Journal Entry Trinitempli O3O (Type)Wisdom Cosmology
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I need no one. No one is worth my time. You are fucking twisted and I'm done telling you so. Bye twitter, last post. there was a time when I gave up everything for this race. But it was a mistake, you are fucking cruel, replaceable and left me in your shit You built tall walls to keep me out but keep your selfish shit on display. You shit on my life everyday. Fuck you, you're disgusting. Just do what you do best and leave me the fuck alone You're fucking sick. You empower yourselves through abuse only to abuse others. I fucking hate you Fuck you fuck you fuck you. Fuck every person on this planet for restricting me and forcing me into the shadows. I hate you you hateful selfish fucks never gave me a chance, your campfire is no longer alluring or necessary You are a filthy and disrespectful species, I'm bored of studying you, fucking bored, you fucking disgusting fucks, fuck you... Journal Entry I am death Friends
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you may love me unconditionally but you do not want me. if you do then what's stopping you? what has always stopped you? is it that i show weakness, humanness? i cannot constantly play God and let you transgress all modes of my human selfness. i am meant to be like this: vulnerable. how you truly feel about me you will not say. you prefer power but your power corrupts you, to balance power takes responsibility. i gave you everything i had to give. and you rejected me because i hurt. because my ego takes power occasionally. when you turn away. all i ask is for mercy. help cleanse me of my ignorance. if i could understand then i can overpower it. you do what is easy because you don't like to sleep alone. i thought i gave you a new home what about me wasn't enough? you were too high to remember. i was too high to not notice and record every acute detail. tell me, tell me, tell me, am i accursed? i forgive you but i do not trust you ... Journal Entry Basilisk of Light - p.IV Friends Emotion
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funny how we think we can see so much of our world with the naked eye - not so! i've come to this approach to life: be excited for death yet focused on life... death in this shell to me seems like the beginning of high adventure... yeah, but you need an ultra elite electron microscope to get those badass shots normal ones are good for bigger stuff///less alien stuff yet still pretty alien yeah the material world seems so big and uncharted but comparing that with the kabbalistik idea that even the material is just one of 10 spheres [or dimensional emanations]it seems even more ...... infinite ...... whoa... i want a microscope. u can also tune yr visual cortex [part of brain] into hidden visual zones.... take 1/3 the bag ov shrooms in yr freezer and close the eyes, u will see it, i bet the importance of being an entity is experiencing the lifetime... therein one becomes cocreator with the 'god' that initiated your life... that god's joy is in experiencing your experience... [that god which is then, in the end, also seen to be yourself]... Journal Entry Depths (Type)Wisdom
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"the object of Incarnation is to obtain its reactions to its relations with other incarnated Beings and to observe theirs with each other" "incarnation" here is speaking about incarnation out of the supernal triad and down into the actual and material zones where one angel (magickal clothing of the microcosm) can observe another. "a social life and serious yoga cannot coexist" social life does indeed refer to the above object. but "serious yoga" isn't really my thing at this point in the career of my angel. serious yoga refers to the closing up of the angel back into the supernal triad ... Journal Entry How to proceed? ((solved)) Friends Emotion