Cinema
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moving through an aqua channel [not really a river - maybe 30ft across]. come upon an edge ending at an immense waterfall [maybe 10-15 second freefall to the bottom]. group of us are there with some sort of instructor. lizzy is there, speaking about the jump-to-come and the backpak with our already-thrashed food. my heart is throbbing with anticipation [fear of extremely-far freefalls into water is a very common element in my dreams]. most of the group goes over, waiting and watching becomes a difficult endeavor. i am the last in our group besides the instructor to go, another group gathers behind me. i have a strong drive to continue and meditate through the fear. i partially wake-up here as the jump seems to be too intense to stay conscious of the astral sphere. my heart is about to explode from my chest. but i have the sensation of making it: headfirst on the way down like a diving hawk and then a quick switch to feet-down as gravity plunges me into the deep pool at the bottom. upon arriving there it seems like it's a portal and i find myself inside an indoor pool with the group all there...
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Plunge
Dream
Friends
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2=1=0! :) all aspects reconcilable... boundaries are temporary illusions... the division is for the chance of union and beyond moral judgement... though i do agree it is harmful for this species to continue its blind faith in the dual, i realize it has gotten us where it has... also, i believe that magick can be used as a tool of nondual training since it seems to me to be simply yoga in reverse ["conquering god" on the flip side of "dissolving into god"... the two directions can be balanced in a harmony]...Journal Entry
Dual Reply
Yoga
Cosmology
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still processing this...... the more i reflect the more amazing it feels.... some highlights: the soundsystem camps were so so pleasing to see out in that setting after years of bay area undergrounds... all my acquaintances from that scene were there... the drugs were amazing and i had some of the prettiest and most intense visions ever.... m3sc4line [first time], 5hr00ms, L25, 2-Ci and K were all in my system by the end of the weekend!... the presence of "the other" was at times so overwhelming at one point i literally thought the campgrounds had shifted and left this planet.... had a run-in with an attendee that ended in a tragic event after i left (there's a big long story i have to tell about this but face-to-face seems best).... the only really negative things i have to say are that the folks could've been a bit more inviting and the parties a bit more engaging (too much of the time i'd be the only person in front of a soundsystem dancing).... oh and much much better selection of music than burningman could ever supply! (dubstep, jungle, breakcore, hardcore, tekno, blackmetal, darkambient and of course "e...Journal Entry
AMF13 Journal
Autonomous Mutant Festival XIII
Friends
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watching the labyrinth walls blueprinting metamorphosis along its way i/o balancing.... [the ego *is* a structure: "false" in its pretenses, "evil" in its raw expression and essentially "hollow" as it may be, it contains a "personality", which is a dualing input/output stream of pure lifeforce] ...all the while viewing this apparent dual as illusory, a cultural artifact... pure lifeforce flow! true will or the guardian angel represents the most proper egoic veil i/o or lifeforce dynamic for the individual in question obtained through surrender of the personality yogic fine tuning (apparent control - Yama) magickal will projection (apparent control - Invocation) but with zero control...Journal Entry
starting hir day, rebirth, change fractal cascade
Harmony
Cosmology
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i love mine path, it is perfect. i will do all in my power to free it to the utmost. no paths dictate worth towards my own. from now on i will realize what other people do is not ever an attack on me. Even if they feel they're attacking me it is impossible for violence not to be only an attack on yourself and who am I to assume anyone else's opinion? that my negative reactions to them come out of rejections of some part of myself. to not cave and lash-out from the control attempts made by these broken self-worth programs (which attempt to insulate me from the dynamics of my environment) even when the things i want the most but may never have are acutely exposed before me in the activities of my peers......Journal Entry
Compassion Wishes
Friends
Emotion
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huh this rando drunk jock type dude @ 1015 said the darndest things.... something about how i'm "too nice" in the face of the harsh and fucked up world and also that i open myself up to all transgressions by being "too beautiful" these are paraphrases.... don't quite know what to make of it... don't really care too much.....Journal Entry
Transgressions?
Friends
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adventuring through a forest with some kids come across this young girl who takes us down a path to come to this closedup house, like all squashed together she had been sleeping in a little section where the house meets the ground and there was a sleeping bag there like a cocoon we somehow hit some button that caused the house to open up we saw bones of people in the cross-section of the basement we went into the front door to find a nicely kept house no one was there we split up to look around it seemed like it had been a nazi general's house during ww2 i went to the master bedroom and found a master closet at the end of the closet was a door i went in to find a scarlet-decorated witch who lived/slept in the house she seemed young and beautiful and hardly stirred by our entry. her face was a spiral like the elders in my other woods/portal dreams. ...Journal Entry
Forest Witch House
Dream
