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Shared Experience
black and gold machine elves
total astral enrapturment
contents of my mind exposed and outstretched in 3-space
stellar travel flip-book style navigation controller
connecting with arboreal squid-gorillas
-Anoml/naughtnaut
HallucinationFriendsToys83 McAllister St. #112
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Screenshot
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Lily Book Find
BooksThoughtConnectivityMammal
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Trinitempli O3O
experimentation = invocation = divination
alchemy = goetia = qabalah
SCIENCE = RELIGION = PHILOSOPHY
dualism = monism = nihilism
2 = 1 = 0
wisdom = understanding = knowledge
3 = 8 = 1
trances/paths: mechanica/fortune = joy/sorrow = self/less
0 = 3 = 2
Mercury = Sulphur = Salt
(Type)WisdomCosmology
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Basilisk of Light + p.VI
if you stay naive you can remain innocent of everything.
"the exposure of innocence is a lie"
the joy you share with others is also my joy.
give me all your attempts to make me sorry. to addict me to sorrow.
it is fun to wander into the clouds but carelessness attracts malignant forces and to stay high you walk on our backs.
i'm either really ignorant about knowing what i want or really persistent about getting what i want
(Type)WisdomFriends
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ghostbeetlebloodwater
it's my birthday
what the fuck do i care about that?
so fucking drunk
so split-knuckled
fucking dumb drunk
knuckles against wood
let me in
i'm alone on the cold concrete
of my expensive apartment
yet not alone
yet so not fucking alone
so alone
crusting blood trickles
knuckles
now i want more
where did i leave those razors
fresh cut arms
wiping blood against the pages
it's a code you see
see it opening up
so drunk
it's my birthday
give me all of it now
give me what's in the icebox
give me my beautiful fungiqueen
now so trip
HallucinationEmotionFriends(Type)Wisdom
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Birthgasm
embodying pure emanations of nature
biting the white hot blade of love
illuminating exit holes in the death-cycle
for every action not-taken there exists a concrescing birth-orgasm
my mind rejects your dogma like viral-infection
the drama is nice but what about that climax?
(there's no such thing as too much lubrication*)
what are the limitations really?
you think i don't know how to engineer the street-hustla-turned-rapper lifestyle?
this is a global joint.
1+i
*there will always be friction
HallucinationFriendsCulture(Type)Wisdom
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Balance Winds Oozing Dichotomic Awareness
Remaining Faithful to Unity thereby dissolving Blame and Guilt Programming
Feel: that truth is a feeling. and as such has little to do with the 'true or false' duality platform, inwhich all things are both. this realization though can become the Unity perceived, the circle completed: an orgasm if one is to surrender to its ecstasy. it means a shedding of illusory constructs, realizing true blends 100% into false. these and other constructs make us who we are currently. the infinite possibility of existence, fluctuating compliments, all beautiful
FriendsCosmologyYogaSky
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white journal '10
one nothing -> one source -> one playground
CosmologyYoga
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The Dissolvement of Thought in the Engagement of the Orgasm of the Moment
Englishing will not pervert my feelings. My feelings are made of words.
Shouldn't it be: Let the best ideas win?
No, because we all have filters in place to deal with known emotional
response incase of uncomfortable truths.
Whim is a lower level result of survival that must be examined closer,
Personal Feelings are Habitual, resisting Novelty. They seem to me to be more survival
techniques, as Ego is. and are possibly anti-light/will-friction generating phenomena.
Explain to me what Pleasure is exactly.
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ThoughtConnectivity
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Effort Confusion '09
CosmologyThoughtFriendsYoga
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'Understanding Nebula' Labyrinth Game
{connect visually in illustrator}
the ego is a "protective" layer/program,
leftover from the tribal survivalist operating-system.
it is a system that can assume the identity of the greater self
it is a system that is created by feedback from your environment
it is not the true self but a hallucinated idea of an unknowable assumption
about how others perceive thee.
ego underhandedly tries to control
other incarnated beings
to "make" them do things
to bolster that ego
back into safety-mode
when it is alarmed by
possibilities of deat
Cosmology
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IPShOSh
Language(Type)Wisdom
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Binding = Freedom
Boundaries bind, the yoke frees.
Thought
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Dump from 2006-10.txt
i think that no matter how much people think they own and try to own things, it can't happen. it's impossible. ownership is a false concept, in much the same way that the ego is a false concept. no person has the capacity to own anything or anyone. no person has the capacity to be cut off from the system that is our universe. we all own everything and are in turn owned always and completely.
it is frustrating, and i am guilty of this too: letting people and being let to be who you are. to experience as you wish. letting things be what they are. i
Cosmology
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Belief
what you think is actually really true! what kind of pompous idea is that? that you could possibly possess truth?
what APPEARS to be true TO YOU, RIGHT NOW
Thought
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DESIRE DEMANDS
DESIRE DEMANDS THAT I DO NOT DEMAND
FOR DEMANDED DESIRE FULFILLMENT IS NOT WHOLISTIC
Emotion
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System Halt
Screenshot
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AMF13 Journal
still processing this...... the more i reflect the more amazing it feels.... some highlights:
the soundsystem camps were so so pleasing to see out in that setting after years of bay area undergrounds... all my acquaintances from that scene were there... the drugs were amazing and i had some of the prettiest and most intense visions ever.... m3sc4line [first time], 5hr00ms, L25, 2-Ci and K were all in my system by the end of the weekend!... the presence of "the other" was at times so overwhelming at one point i literally thought the campgrounds had
Autonomous Mutant Festival XIIIFriendsHallucination
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Alice (in Wonderland (in 3D))
... would've been better in psilocybin-vision. Perhaps then the 75% of the audience that did not realize that the dragon was actually a symbol for the inner-demon of illusion called Choronzon and that the entire film was actually a multi-layered metaphorical symbol of incredible subtlety. The film masterfully encourages the masses to banish said demon thereby creating new beginnings (see: 11) AKA accomplishing the magickal work.
The "place" called Wonderland is used to describe how Nature approaches the "individual" via a series of ordeals in order
VideoGatherings
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Dreamhaus
DreamScreenshotFriends
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Cogito Ergo Sum
cogito ergo sum
the boundaries that i can *sense* are my controllable boundaries
i am, because i can cognize my own existence
the ego becomes necessary once more, at the level of interacting with people
when you cannot cognize that you are them. I FEEL the boundary, even though
it doesn't OBJECTIVELY exist... the only way to treat people correctly is to
(assume you are individuals and?) treat them how you want to be treated.
we cannot assume that we are one thing because that FEELS incorrect... for
safety's sake.
sum, ergo ego.
(Type)WisdomFriends
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Astral Gateway Skull
1-performing full moon ritual out in the field (which was specifically geared towards contacting the astral body) [2010-03-30@2AM]
2-having partially achieved a wonder-trance (via transmuting a sorrow-trance) which i felt under the spell of when i first saw the skull (so the find was perhaps a direct reward for achieving that state at that time)... moments after seeing the skull i saw the coyote about 50ft away burst out of the trees and run off [2010-03-30@11AM]
3-before dragging it back (/last night) i had this strange notion that
Foundskull + VertebraeEmotion
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"i gonna fight ya with my heart and soul"
.. and yet the more we fight, the more rights they steal.. does fighting now mean shutting up?
this is not a civil rights era, you will not be granted rights in response to direct actions, you will be punished because the majority actually would rather support tyranny over freedom and live in their little comfort cages of false security. the police have orders to treat you as if you are simply 'getting in the way (of their peacekeeping)' if you are engaged in action challenging to the establishment then your rights are basically waived.
Friends
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so ready to watch society burn
i will be stoking the cleansing fire
nervous they are, those that wish to live without giving. the more they draw guns, the more nervousness they reveal. their sinking financial projections, the controllers/bankers know and they are so so frightened. fear turns to insidious plans. total collapse is now inevitable.
Sean Maccracken Since at least the bronze age this same time bomb has been ticking.
Laïlamlith Nebulæ interesting position we are in that we get to experience it.. that is, if i can find a way to tolerate the agonies of the final birt
Friends
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True
Finding true love and true enjoyment can be pretty detrimental to the human mind
Friends
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starting hir day, rebirth, change fractal cascade
watching the labyrinth walls
blueprinting metamorphosis along its way
i/o balancing....
[the ego *is* a structure:
"false" in its pretenses,
"evil" in its raw expression
and essentially "hollow" as it may be,
it contains a "personality",
which is a dualing input/output stream of pure lifeforce]
...all the while viewing this apparent dual as illusory,
a cultural artifact...
pure lifeforce flow!
true will
or the guardian angel
represents
the most proper
egoic veil i/o
or lifeforce dynamic
for the individual in quest
HarmonyCosmology
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Racial Murders
almost no one can properly define what race is without an anthropological degree.
racism tends to self-generate.
white people killing blacks makes blacks hate whites. makes whites hate whites. makes whites that already hated blacks hate them more for being upset.
the linguistic mechanics of "black and white" is a disgustingly warring designation of humans that creates prejudicial stereotyping. we aren't all brown?
Friends
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Demiurgic Growth Vat Dumping
is that y we've been grown in this vat?
bcs a sorrow-enshrouded world(view) creates the best kind of art [when one overcomes it]?
we are a steaming pile of creative spark ripe for the dumping back in to the galactic mind stew
Cosmology
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AnUNioN for Σ
DiagramYogaCosmology
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Find Others
honing the netweb glue trap
find thee others
where be u
Friends
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Statuz
trys to unwind culture by passively offering foreign objects up for inspection /// has become the fool on the hill
(Type)Wisdom
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Love and Sunbeams
you said i needed love
and sunshine
you said you'd give it
for a moment
Friends
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Disappearance Take 2
no one seems to care about other people's darkness.. so i'm just sealing it off until i trust that someone truly is
healing seems pretty much a personal thing, trying to help is like a termite trying to assist a NASA mission...
the rejection i feel is not really anyone else's concern
i guess i only tried to include other's in it because i was too weak to be ok with taking time to disconnect
i don't really think it would help anyone heal
whenever i include people in the details of it it leads to disaster
plus i will not allow the chance of ne
Friends
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Transgressions?
huh
this rando drunk jock type dude @ 1015
said the darndest things....
something about how i'm "too nice"
in the face of the harsh and fucked up world
and also that i open myself up to all
transgressions by being "too beautiful"
these are paraphrases....
don't quite know what to make of it...
don't really care too much..
Friends
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Numinosity
I am within you, and of you.
At any slice in time of my existence any number of hyperdimensional situations are taking place, conducted by "the Collective Unconscious", socalled
which could mean that the gateway to hyperlight communication must also exist, if one were to be so inclined as to invoke thine brothers and sisters!
which also means ego death
subject-object blurring
Dyana -> Samadhi
According to Hinduism, dhyana is considered as a stage of awakening in such precious condition where you get obvious rid of maya (the false expression
(Type)WisdomHarmonyYogaEmotionCosmology
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Dual Reply
2=1=0! :)
all aspects reconcilable...
boundaries are temporary illusions...
the division is for the chance of union and beyond moral judgement...
though i do agree it is harmful for this species to continue its blind faith in the dual, i realize it has gotten us where it has...
also, i believe that magick can be used as a tool of nondual training since it seems to me to be simply yoga in reverse ["conquering god" on the flip side of "dissolving into god"... the two directions can be balanced in a harmony]
YogaCosmology
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yellow journal '10
only creating internal frictions concerning "one's own" morality of "one's own" actions can be said to be "false will" (as in opposition to the Thelemic idea of True Will)
all will is one will above the abyss, likewise, there true and false do not exist
Anything in quotes above is a conventionalized lie concerning the nature of Self
am i still too lazy to join the white school?
HarmonyCosmology
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Depths
funny how we think we can see so much of our world with the naked eye - not so!
i've come to this approach to life: be excited for death yet focused on life... death in this shell to me seems like the beginning of high adventure...
yeah, but you need an ultra elite electron microscope to get those badass shots
normal ones are good for bigger stuff///less alien stuff
yet still pretty alien
yeah the material world seems so big and uncharted but comparing that with the kabbalistik idea that even the material is just one of 10 spheres [or dimension
(Type)Wisdom
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Mantric Programs
engage to the moment
[past and future worry does no good]
desire for result is lame
[experience of the process is beauty]
ask your angel to act through you
[expressing its desires in the form of impulses]
Emotion
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illusion + experiencer = reality
the illusion of free will (in organisms)
creates the reality of free will
(for their creator and the creature)
because they act on that sensation of free will.
so since they think they are in control of their organism,
they can truly act outside the expectations of their creator
('new' things are possible!).
if they weren't given this possibility [also called "ego"] they would simply behave intuitively in accordance with the will of the all
[and all would get no newness in its/our universe and newness is fun [for us all]].
'the' creator h
CosmologyEmotion
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Detachment Entrapment
you'd love me if i didn't care
where i was
how i was received
who cared
and y
is sentimentality my biggest weakness?
that i care?
teach me how to detach
tech me how to be
unconditionally
EmotionYogaFriends
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Deepest Shade of Mushroom Blue
i have loved an xenomorph
and given birth to myself as a new kind of organism
guided by light
stripped of all convention
i am and can code
interfaced with foreign information systems
in a state of magical resonance
infused with song and imagination
show me
take me
hold me
tell me
i would also like to show you.
i saw tribal societies being infused with alien technologies
i saw entire civilizations being harvested and transported in grotesque ways
i saw the lines being blurred in every way possible
i saw my body as a vestigial vessel,
HallucinationEmotionFriendsAnatomy
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Discord
Somehow, I feel free right now.
classy clothing
a good job, for sure-
kiss him out on the street
in the cold fog of evening.
don't look at my eyes,
yours are the same-
scorpion destruction,
i know your kind well
i won't start
and nor will you.
all i want to know is-
how aware are you?
do you know how you glow?
you have your vision,
what part do you play in it?
thought break
fuck i'm lonely.
my bestfriend is leaving tomorrow. for a long time. i will miss you and your first born: Rufus.
i'd kill for some com
FriendsEmotion
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Remove Your Head from Your Balloon Knot, Por Favor
A pool cut into rock where reef fish dwell.
A pool uncut, tidal formation, a striped eel basks.
Awaiting night and a return to the sea.
Orchestrating fish schools, my goggles and fins.
Slam me into sharp coral, my kayak rides waves.
The shell of a beast packed delicately in styrofoam, your new northern home.
Whitey rides dolphins for $150 a piece.
Whitey feeds on cheap delicacies from the troughs, pumped full of alcohol.
A Hollywood film presented beach-side, feel close enough to home for y'all?
And oh thee Delphinus - an early Gaiain att
Mexico 2007
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LAYLALAI
stir my no-thing-trance
The purpose of conscious life is to learn lessons about the nature of creation (the verb) and to add to the delicate fine subtle fabric thereunto
HarmonyCosmology
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Morality and Destiny are Matters of Dimensionality
The moment one suppresses the true self* is the moment that that self attempts to
manipulate the way others perceive it. This is the physical-body-oriented
ill-intent that the ego expresses from the human organism... Which can spiral into
mental pathology for many modern persons like myself. Though no thing can be
good nor evil. The human entity bound to time must make the choice they tend to
feel is most proper under the banners of wholeness, wholesomeness and
connectedness (which the ego attempts to revolt against) if they are attempting
th
CosmologyFriends
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Apologiae Exacerbacione
i apologize to my friends for being assumptive and over imaginative and for
giving confusing and/or paranoid and/or selfish communicationss
i am learning through "failure" at this
FriendsEmotion
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Engagements
I find that if i engage to rapidly changing music i can find myself sending myself instructions from ahead of time.
EmotionAnatomyConnectivity
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All is Arbitrary, Temporary Illusion / All is Light
unless one is attempting to de-power some aspect that has been talking too loudly: calling anything illusion is meaningless, as all is thus. all current illusion is the will of the all.
a possibly useful filter: is something based on rejection? That is the darkness (from voyager perspective/plane of duality).
Though All is Light on the Absolute plane.
the dark is the delusion of the MANY in the voyager... that delusion expresses itself in many ways but is avoidable IF THOU WILT
One (of The Many) can accept* (which means compassion) and e
(Type)WisdomYogaEmotion
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Effort = Surrender
mind and body are both mind
the shaman must live at the edge of the village
off the beaten path of culture
healing the sick
through lifeforce connect
informational downloads
through psychotropic ingestion
locks and keys appear
HallucinationFriends
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Plunge
moving through an aqua channel [not really a river - maybe 30ft across].
come upon an edge ending at an immense waterfall [maybe 10-15 second freefall to the bottom].
group of us are there with some sort of instructor. lizzy is there, speaking about the jump-to-come and the backpak with our already-thrashed food.
my heart is throbbing with anticipation [fear of extremely-far freefalls into water is a very common element in my dreams].
most of the group goes over, waiting and watching becomes a difficult endeavor.
i am the last in our grou
DreamFriends
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Thoth
i dreamt about you
you were dragging me through middle america on a jet ski
the farm lands were flooded
a large fish jumped out of the water as if to bite off your head but its nose only brushed the top of your hair as we sped by, at this moment time slowed way down
(i feel like you were a man earlier in the dream and had to kill me for some reason but that didn't actually end up happening)
later you and some other friends were entranced by a magician making you feel like you were drowning in a pool and i was trying to pull you all out of the i
DreamFriends
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Un consciousss
last night: car was stolen, miranda was there trying to help
two nights ago: teleporting snakes in the back of a van, yuri driving
Dream
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MIRRORACLE
the strongest weapon is the mirror
i fight my enemies with naught else
for self-centeredness is the most self-less possibility
EmotionCosmology
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Up-down Resonance
THE LE MA
is the label of
the resonation
on all planes
(Path)Fool
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Architect
There is a Mason's temple next to this building that reads: Dedicated to the Supreme Architect of the Universe
(Path)Fool
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Block Universe Plane, Emanating a No Free-Will Perspective?
not only do all passed events make up what you currently are, but all future events as well - this is called closed time-cube cosmology.
(Path)FoolCosmology
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I am death
I need no one. No one is worth my time. You are fucking twisted and I'm done telling you so. Bye twitter, last post.
there was a time when I gave up everything for this race. But it was a mistake, you are fucking cruel, replaceable and left me in your shit
You built tall walls to keep me out but keep your selfish shit on display. You shit on my life everyday. Fuck you, you're disgusting.
Just do what you do best and leave me the fuck alone
You're fucking sick. You empower yourselves through abuse only to abuse others. I fucking hate you
Friends
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The Insulation Programming of the Emotional Sphere
working on staying there (which cannot directly be worked on, though raising
awareness can help).
want to feel ok again. can't seem to discover what the fuck is going on in me. i
guess i feel neglected, worthless, uncreative... the main illusions of egoic
control. it's like a knife is stuck deeply and its wound radiates fire. smoke
from that fire clouds all perception.
resistance there. my own choice. to be alive is to resist. i can only lessen it
through love... as you aptly noted as your intention: "ego - quiet"
all clarity so fleeting...
FriendsEmotion
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Compassion Wishes
i love mine path, it is perfect. i will do all in my power to free it to the utmost. no paths dictate worth towards my own.
from now on i will realize what other people do is not ever an attack on me. Even if they feel they're attacking me it is impossible for violence not to be only an attack on yourself and who am I to assume anyone else's opinion?
that my negative reactions to them come out of rejections of some part of myself.
to not cave and lash-out from the control attempts made by these broken self-worth programs (which attempt to insulat
FriendsEmotion
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How to proceed? ((solved))
"the object of Incarnation is to obtain its reactions to its relations with other incarnated Beings and to observe theirs with each other"
"incarnation" here is speaking about incarnation out of the supernal triad and down into the actual and material zones where one angel (magickal clothing of the microcosm) can observe another.
"a social life and serious yoga cannot coexist"
social life does indeed refer to the above object.
but "serious yoga" isn't really my thing at this point in the career of my angel.
serious yoga refers to
FriendsEmotion
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_______________________
i am tired of fighting against the terrible disdain of a planet full of imbeciles. you constantly beat me down with your hateful and negative thoughts, feelings and actions which root from the hatred and rejection of yourselves and the hearts inside that you don't accept. you do not see past the length of your eyelashes, you are so hopelessly stuck in yourselves and fight hard against anything different or challenging to your retentive assumptions. i was never a part of your group, i see that now, i am something else; i am the thing that destroys wo
EmotionFriendsThought
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Simplistic Ascension Model
Yes, mind puzzles, that's what excites me- magic, hacking, visualizing, creating. And, also: The drive to dissolve mental boundaries.
I noticed that few appreciate the meaning of aesthetics.
why do I try so hard? it has become culturally-sanctioned to behave atrociously, I don't wish to be another asshole.
CosmologyEmotionDiagram
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Map of orgnsm.org in its infancy
This is what this page looks like when the major DOM nodes are mapped.
There is a color key available on the site where you can make these maps.
CosmologyScreenshot
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Naught
i once had a vision (Tetrahydrocannabinol induction) that each mind or mindset had one purpose, that being to generate Novelty. that we were in some kind of capsule hotel, each capsule containing our version of the universe perceived by us and therefore ours to make as we see fit... this is where Creativity comes into play. there would be novelty meters placed above each of the capsules and the higher gods would walk the hallways taking notes on the Neophytes. this vision has come and gone over the last year or so, specifically peeking through durin
AnatomyHallucinationPlantae
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Whale Song
I had a dream that I was asking a researcher about audio recordings of whales in an office styled room. The researcher told me they had a large tank in the back that could hold a whale for listening purposes. We went out to the tank to see a large sail boat pulling in from a channel connecting it to the (natural) bay nearby. The tank was empty (of whales) so a wealthy man was allowed to park his yacht there. When the boat got into the tank the skipper got out and dove in with scuba gear and a harpoon. I was told that sometimes crocodiles get through
Dream
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Vivid Dream
This dream wasn't like the others
It was a dark warehouse like the others
But darker
Too dark
We enter groundfloor
There was a group (5) that split
Then just two of us (Liz)
We are in a strange room with what appears to be a shaft with large pipes running through it that leads sort of both up and out.
The monsters didn't appear physical
They came in and out of astral vision
And yet they seemed to manifest physically when attacking
As usual, my dream self is trained in battle
It is quick to detect the creature with both physical eyes (dur
DreamFriends
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Masters, Mankind, Metamorphosis
i do love you: the precious few who still support me in the dark hours* of my Metamorphosis.
when my skin is tender with the remnants of broken sentiments and i strike-out** at thy delicate touch.
i realize this process hurts us both.
also do i love all of Mankind and its putrid over-emphasis on mundaneness***, for it understandeth not its circumstance (yet).
the thick-headed throngs grow thicker and the Masters must rise ever further**** to meet the challenges.
then also do i love the Masters who teach: there is no Work worth doing but t
(Type)WisdomThoughtFriends
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Basilisk of Light - p.IV
you may love me unconditionally but you do not want me.
if you do then what's stopping you?
what has always stopped you?
is it that i show weakness, humanness?
i cannot constantly play God and let you transgress all modes of my human selfness.
i am meant to be like this: vulnerable.
how you truly feel about me you will not say.
you prefer power but your power corrupts you, to balance power takes responsibility.
i gave you everything i had to give.
and you rejected me because i hurt.
because my ego takes power occasionally.
when yo
FriendsEmotion
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Freo
Shopping in Fremantle.
Valentino's for
dinner in Northbridge. Went running for miles; out towards
Claremont, past the
Old Swan Brewery,
along the river, till I reached a blue boat house.
Australia Trip 2003Travel
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Snowball
Took Snowie, my Uncle's black dog, to Dog Beach (the only one
around there that allows dogs). Ate tacos at grandmothers house.
Watched The Grinch.
Australia Trip 2003Travel
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Klub
Went to a couple clubs in Northbridge area; namely Rise and Base.
Next day Pete, Marion and Chloe showed up. went to Cott Beach
again, jumped in the water this time, cold shit. Went to a good
indian restaurant with them.
Australia Trip 2003Travel
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Cott
Went to Cottesloe Beach, found some crabs and whatnot. Lifted
weights with my brother. Ate at a decent restaurant on the river.
Mom's been sick so we haven't done much. went shopping downtown
today, didn't buy a fucking thing. can't wait to go down to Northcliffe
later this week.
Australia Trip 2003Travel
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West Aus
So I'm here in Perth. Forgot how beautiful this part of the world
is.. Lost a couple days with flying and crossing over time zones...
Me and my brother Paul went out the first night we got here. Went
to this huge bar near the river and near the University of Western
Australia. The place was packed with hundreds of preppy college
kids. I felt pretty damn out of place. Paul met some people and
they took us to another club downtown... Fuckin' too much, some
dress up cover band doing new school punk rock songs, it's funny
Australia Trip 2003Travel
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Aus Departure
I am leaving for Australia in a couple of hours. I will be back on the 31st. Contact me through e-mail until then. (Maybe I will start using this as a real journal on my trip, maybe not.)
Australia Trip 2003Travel
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new luna in Virgo
1: cicadas coming out of the ground slowly, then faster, surrounding and wanting to lay near some other animal friend i had, they began to swarm and i had to run inside to avoid the buzzing cloud.
2: professional waterslide rider. love triangle of deception and betrayal.
3: dirtbike offroad escape, pulled over and ticketed several times, cops finally catch me again after i had gotten high.
Dream
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luna in Taurus
inside noah's restaurant, it's more like a spa, i met a goth-punk girl who is expressive about being a lesbian. we seemed interested in eachother despite her adamence about only liking girls. i go to take a shower in this restaurant-spa, the ppl i'm with don't seem to notice me undressing lots of crazy different kinds of clothes/female clothes and tossing on ground. i emerge and want to find the girl again. i go to a parking lot across the street where she and many boys are hanging out around a single car. i try to give her my card in my wallet but
Dream
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luna full in aquarius/pisces cusp
big slinky reptilian felines in a huge cage in a house... one of them escapes and is making the normal house cats very panicky. nobody [family] in the house believes that there is anything wrong///
Dream
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luna in Capricorn
suburban house party w/l, left w/j to go in to a city bcs he wanted more dancing, went into a mall with a store with glass cases full of metal snake pieces, police are there, they ask where i am coming from, i said i moved here from iowa recently, they said this is the guy, they stuck me with a long poison metal rod and they and many other men started beating me down and slamming metal things into my face.
Dream
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Big tropical space
hotel condo tropical
parents owned but gone
setting up a party there
jetskiing in foamy charred ocean waves, closing jetski plugs, beachouse, man talking about making a job out of teaching jetski classes
restaurant with fancy bathrooms. big open area, box w/evil sorceress queen, torturing half the ppl in box with golden balls that raised out of floor and if didnt touch then one would fall on you from ceiling. rest of group on gangway high above, i caught one ball, threw to hit queen's head, knocked her down, told others to attack, queen was char
DreamPlantae
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Commune
i want very much to connect more with you, my friends. i have been so overwhelmed and confused so easily in this life. i am neither silently judging you nor wanting to hide. i realize the danger and shallowness of both harsh criticism and overly excessive tenderness. i am trying to sort through how i really think and feel comprehensively. the slightest word or gesture can evoke a million different things on ten different planes. so many paths to tread and only one is perfect. true that the perfect one is always the one you choose. true that the hear
Friends
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A note of encouragement for my Friends
All of the most ecstatic, elated, jubilant, exciting, delicious, rewarding moments of my life are so great and so appreciated, there are no complaints here. And yet they are just as important, just as deep, just as potentially fulfilling as *this present moment*.
There is no better place or time or entity to be than here and now and thee.
No one *out there* (in this vast world) is in a better position than you now stand.
No one *out there* is better privileged or has an easier shot at honest Success than you now do.
No one *out there* is h
HarmonyFriendsCosmology
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How is Math.Rand() Calculated?
Orgnsm report '07/03/22
anoml - v3p6 [link forthcoming, Sorry]
note: this is randomly generated through the JavaScript engine.
- higher ordered patterns emerge from the "random" number generator's output,
- so, is this a pattern from the mechanics of the system or is the generator
genuinely 'chaotic' and the pattern is an output of the Cosmic Attractor?
Attached img reminds me of the emerging patterns as from an attractor:
note: there was also a JavaScript-based websit
CosmologyCulture
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Get Out My Mind
I dreamed someone was attacking me over and over with a knife, while dodging
the knife stabs the attacker would be biting me to an excessively painful
level, I wonder if I was crying out in my sleep, it was that intense. I
found this more interesting when I woke up and realized my brother had just
had his ACL
replacement surgery this morning. I called him and he said he was scared as
hell after being brought into the O.R. and viewing the palettes of cutlery
and surgical machinery, but everything went well, he's currently dosed on
Vicodin a
DreamCosmologyAnatomy
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Physical
I am sick, I have a cold. It is stifling my work and personal life. I noticed
now more than before how emotionally unstable it can pull me. The mind and
body are one thing, they're inexorably linked into one piece of flesh. We are
flesh and flesh alone, this cold is more proof of that fact.
Sometimes it
seems easy to think that our conscious/the organ that creates it is not
flesh/is not physical. This is the lie enforced by biology, this is the
tendency that brings about the need for white-light
Anatomy
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Dreamtime
I dreamed that people browsing Google Maps satellite imagery located some
sort of gigantic self-portrait of George W. Bush made out of raised sections
of grass out on his ranch somewhere, G.W. visible from space. Then there was
some kind of TV show playing and Al Gore was on it saying that this proves
"Bush is an egotistical freak" or something to that effect.
Later in the
dream I'm on some alien desert planet. The people there seemed to be under
Bush's rule and fighting against it. They were all
Dream
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Forest Witch House
adventuring through a forest with some kids
come across this young girl who takes us down a path
to come to this closedup house, like all squashed together
she had been sleeping in a little section where the house
meets the ground and there was a sleeping bag there like a cocoon
we somehow hit some button that caused the house to open up
we saw bones of people in the cross-section of the basement
we went into the front door to find a nicely kept house
no one was there
we split up to look around
it seemed like it had been a nazi general
Dream
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Portal to $$$
Running through mansion evading a group of young adults with
guns. Find a bathroom to hide in. Ceiling of bathroom turns
into a portal. Portal leads to large underground crawlspace
with large sacks of money.
Dream
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Large Dolphinskin Creature
i had this dream where i was this creature.
there was a girl and boy there, they were a couple.
i asked them if they felt nothing for me.
they acted ashamed to say yes.
another creature like me appears.
though i know it is a strong opponent
i have no fear nor do i believe
there is any possibility but victory.
i can jump and fall down immense
distances with this body.
there is no harming it.
DreamFriendsBioform
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LAYLA
grateful for
the dreams
last night
floating across
the open desert
jumping
flipping
spinning
if i wish
i need not
come down
accepted there
weaving patterns
with others
my mother watches
from the sidelines
composites of friends,
friends to come,
families to come.
she seems to mock me
but i feel her adoration.
floating near me.
i go on and on
spin around to
see the direction i'm moving in
and bam
a tree is right there
my legs catch me against it.
that tree is in a yard
near a small old
white farmhouse.
her fath
DreamFriends
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Trapt
...just had a dream in which i became pretty much fully conscious towards the
end of. i could not break out of it, trapped in the subconscious...
in the dream i had woken up in my bed (how cinematique) and there
were people in my house taking all my stuff away, cleaning and
painting over all the items i had placed on my wall.
after fighting with them and leaving the house to see if anyone could
help me - i started yelling "it's not real, this isn't real". people
just looked at me as they do in this situation...*
*of
Dream
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Skeleton City War Photos
I dreamt I was a paratrooper-type soldier in a war. I kept thinking it was WWII, but then it seemed like it was post-modern-apocalyptic...
At any rate, we were in an abandoned city, hiding the helicopter in the metal skeleton of a tall building. We did not contact anyone outside the chopper for the length of the dream.
The only personal thing I had with me were photos of a friend of mine.
At one point we left the hiding spot and flew somewhere to do something, I cannot remember what happened here.
This morning I received a TXT from my friend ex
DreamFriends
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Snake Flute
I dreamt I bought a large archaic-looking recorder from someone that was dumpster diving for $5. I then brought it over to an old lot where a building used to be to show it to some people I knew. Upon playing it a black snake appeared out of the ground, then a green snake, then many many green snakes and one of them was close enough to bite me and did so.
I can't really sleep much recently. Serpents are in my dreamland often.
DreamBioform
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Thine Angel
Would you say to thine angel How can I best serve mankind? ? Or perhaps you wish to dance in the fields and build narrartives of enchanted contextual situatia in order to perpetuate The Great Mystery? Can these coincide? I believe so. And belief is all I have. I'd like to do this by creating and showing physical representations of the astral (an infinite source and playground for the creation of sublime beauty).
I dreamt I had developed and maintained hyperdimensional instruments to probe
and scan the astral dimension in order to gain a broader
Dream
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Grimey
under my grime is spit-shine
the lightbulb hum harmonizes in and out with the music
eye cross dress
the vision will go as far as you let it, it can always go further
learned a lot about self-sex
agitated erection develops from astral projection doubling
the 1-to-2 lengthening
the holy books of chaos magick
chaos being the solar 1 and magick 2 equilibriating
equiliberating
congressvm aürä
which is more provocative: vagina or sideways mouth or sideways eye
transmit hadit particles
become a perfected key by aligning yourself to fit the t
Emotion
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Metatron burns...
Metatron burns in your heart my dear
The lady and man in one
Dream
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You are Not
You do not cross the abyss; you do not set sail on those black waters with sword in hand to strike at the goal; there is no attainment of mastery to pin to the lapel, no experience of the beyond for you to know; the you as you know yourself comes to an end, the you that you know is a self-perpetuating program in the mental matrix, when you are done with the playtime of contrasting one side of the coin with the other then the you that has been defined for you releases its stranglehold over your being and the subtle vibrations from beyond the abyss wo
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